Dark Destiny
Part 3
The small cruiser sailed through the murky air of Dagobah. Obi-Wan could sense Yodas presence was very near.
He scanned for a solid swath of land among the endless swamps. His keen eyes
finally spotted what looked to be their best bet for landing. Obi-Wan carefully
brought the cruiser down on a small island in the middle of a huge swamp. He
shook his head as he gazed outside . Poor Yoda! And
I thought Tatooine was depressing!
Obi-Wan pressed the switch to open the hatch. He
hopped out and turned to help Padme down. Obi-Wan
couldnt help but laugh at the expression on her face.
Poor Yoda! I
would go mad if I had to live here! Padme was
looking around in horror.
Obi-Wan smiled. You just echoed my thoughts. He took
Padmes hand and led her around the cruiser. He
spotted a small hut through the haze, some distance away. Light shone out from
the windows. He could sense excitement emanating from the normally staid little
Jedi Master. Obi-Wan felt exactly the same way.
Obi-Wan looked for a decent path to take to the hut,
but all he could see was swamp. Well, theres no point in both of us getting
all wet and slimy. He took off his robe, rolled it up and handed it to Padme. Obi-Wan then swept Padme
into his arms and proceeded to trudge through the muck.
Padme
grinned as she wound her arms around his neck. Obi-Wan was
always looking out for her. Padme looked up as some
kind of winged creature flew overhead. She could hear the unfamiliar calls of
many different animals. She looked around warily. This place gives me the
creeps!
As they neared the hut, Padme
could see Yoda standing in his doorway. She felt Obi-Wan quicken his pace. She
smiled warmly at Obi-Wan. She knew he was excited to see Yoda again. He grinned
back at her a little sheepishly.
When they finally reached some solid ground, Obi-Wan
gently put Padme down. He walked quickly over the
green figure standing in the small doorway. Both Obi-Wan and Yoda wore huge
smiles. Obi-Wan knelt down in front of Yoda, taking a clawed hand in his. Its
very good to see you again, Master.
A joy it is to see you again, Obi-Wan. Yodas wise
eyes were twinkling with affection. Yoda turned to Padme.
Glad I am to see you well.
Padme smiled
down at him. Thank you, Master Yoda. Its good to see you again.
Yoda turned. Come inside. Dinner I have prepared.
Obi-Wan got up and stepped aside to let Padme go in. She had to bend down to enter the tiny hut.
Obi-Wan removed his wet, slime-covered boots before heading in. He almost had
to crawl on his hands and knees to get through the doorway. The inside of the
hut wasnt much better. He didnt think hed even be able to sit upright,
except maybe in the very center. I can tell you werent planning on many human
visitors when you built this place.
Hmmph! Build it any higher
I could not. Have to make do, you will. The mirth in Yodas eyes belied his
tone. He brought Padme a steaming bowl of stew. He
turned to find Obi-Wan already ladling out stew into the two remaining bowls.
Obi-Wan looked at the two bowls in his hands and then
over to where Yoda was standing. He realized it would be almost impossible for
him to carry them and move in the cramped quarters. Obi-Wan called on the Force
and sent the two bowls sailing over to Yoda.
Yoda chuckled as he watched Obi-Wan crawl to the
center of the room. Help us even with the smallest problems the Force does.
The three sat down in the center of the room. Obi-Wan was happy to find that he could sit completely upright in
that spot. He gingerly tried the stew and smiled. Hey, this is pretty good!
Sound surprised you do. Good cook I am! Yoda thumped
Obi-Wan with his stick.
Obi-Wan laughed. I wasnt really talking about your
cooking, but the ingredients. Im surprised you can find anything that tastes
good on this planet. Oh, that reminds me! We brought you some supplies,
courtesy of Bail. Ill go get them when Im finished eating.
Yoda had perked up at that. What bring you?
Obi-Wan grinned at him. Well, for one thing, a box of
your favorite tea.
Yoda looked at him eagerly. Bring you cookies as
well?
Obi-Wans face fell. He
quickly locked his mental shields in place. Oh, uhPadme,
did we remember to bring the cookies?
Padme
decided to play along. I saw the box off to the side. Didnt you put it on the
ship?
Obi-Wan glanced guiltily at Yoda. I thought you did.
Yoda whacked Obi-Wan again with his stick. Like
cookies with my tea, I do!
Obi-Wan couldnt keep up the charade anymore. He broke
into a huge grin. Yes, Master, I brought your favorite cookies. He tried to
quickly get out of reach of the stick, but wasnt quite fast enough. Obi-Wan
laughed as he scooted back to his place.
Yoda was giving him his stern Head Jedi Council Member
gaze.
Obi-Wan shrugged and gave Yoda an innocent look. I
couldnt help myself. A grin was still tugging at his lips.
Yoda crossed his arms. Hmmph!
Reminded I am of your days as a mischievous young padawan.
Padme
watched the interaction between the two. She couldnt help but smile at the
warm familiarity and affection they shared.
Obi-Wan quickly finished his stew. He crawled out the
door and pulled on his boots. He walked over to the edge of the swamp and
paused. Obi-Wan didnt relish the idea of wading through the swamp again. He
smiled slightly as a thought came to him. He focused his mind on the Force.
Padme came
out to offer some help, but stopped when she saw Obi-Wan standing at the edge
of the swamp with his arm up. In the distance she saw something coming through
the mist. She burst into laughter as she saw a long line of cargo floating
towards them over the water.
Yoda came up beside her, chuckling. Comes in handy
the Force does, hmm?
Padme
nodded, still laughing. She watched as all of the cargo landed on the ground,
piece by piece. Before long, a huge stack of cargo, as well as their luggage,
was neatly arranged near the door.
Obi-Wan turned to find Padme
and Yoda watching him. What?
Padme
laughed again. You, thats what!
Obi-Wan turned pink. Well, I didnt feel like making
twenty trips through the swamp.
Yoda chuckled. New version of the assembly line you
created. He turned and looked at the boxes. Now, find the tea and cookies we
will. Then, talk we must.
Obi-Wan, Yoda and Padme were
sitting again in the center of the hut. Yoda was thoroughly enjoying the tea
and cookies. He studied Obi-Wan over his cup. The whole story of what happened
to you, I want to hear.
Padme spoke
up first. The whole thing was my fault.
Padme!
Obi-Wan didnt want her going down that road again.
It is, Obi! Im the whole reason you came out of
hiding and got captured. Padme proceeded to tell
Yoda how the whole thing began. Obi-Wan joined in and together they explained
all that had transpired.
Yoda took in every detail, only nodding his head once
and a while. He kept his face neutral, but his distress at hearing what Obi-Wan
went through was evident in his eyes.
Obi-Wan leaned in towards Yoda. My oneness with the
Force was so different than what Ive experienced before it was so complete,
so profound. I know the Force was helping me.
Yoda nodded, eyes closing in concentration. Helping you the Force WAS. Plans for you the Force still
has. Tired the Force is of being used by the Dark Side. Greatly attracted to
your light it was.
Padme beamed
at Obi-Wan. See, I told you that you are light!
Obi-Wan gave her a wry look. Yes,
over and over again.
Yoda smiled slightly. Listen to her, you should. He
studied Obi-Wan again. Told me everything, you have not.
Obi-Wan glanced at Padme.
Well, its ratherunbelievable, and kind of hard to put into words.
Padme jumped
in. Ill put it into words. She ignored Obi-Wans
warning look. Padme focused her eyes on Yoda while
pointing at Obi-Wan. This man was actually able to bring about feelings of
affection in Sidious!
Yoda could not hide his surprise.
Padme
continued. Not just any sort of affection, but FATHERLY affection! Its
absolutely incredible! She turned and grinned at Obi-Wan in time to find him
rolling his eyes. That didnt deter her. Nothing Obi said or did angered him.
Padme
scooted closer to Yoda as she continued. She didnt want to give Obi-Wan a
chance to downplay this event. Sidious made it clear
from the beginning that he wanted Obi on his side. He had said that he wanted
Obi to be his second apprentice.
Yodas eyes widened. Second
apprentice? Unheard of that is with the Sith.
Padme dove
back in. That was his intention at first, but I believe that changed as time
went on. I got the distinct impression that Sidious
wasnt too happy with Vader. But his reaction when Vader almost killed Obi
clinched it.
Obi-Wans curiosity was
piqued. How did he react?
First of all, Sidious must
have felt you were close to death through the Force, because he came running
through the door right after you lost consciousness. He saw you hanging limply
from the chains and screamed at Vader. You know, now that I think of it, Sidious personally released you from the chains. And he
laid you down so gently. Then he sent Vader flying into the back wall! Padme couldnt help but laugh at the memory. Vader hit his
head so hard, Im surprised he didnt have a
concussion! Sidious held him up against the wall with
the Force. I thought he was going to kill Vader right then and there.
Obviously, he didnt. But he did say, If Obi-Wan dies, so do you.
Yoda looked at Obi-Wan, who appeared to be speechless.
Remarkable this is.
Padme turned
back to Yoda. It wasnt long before Sidious sent
Vader away on a mission. I think he just wanted Vader out of his sight. I
believe that Sidious decided then and there to
REPLACE Vader with Obi-Wan. Padme turned to Obi-Wan
with a bright smile. Okay, you can tell the rest of the story. Her smile
disappeared as a thought hit her. She turned back to Yoda. Ask him HOW he came
to know of Sidious fatherly affection.
Yoda watched Padme cross her
arms and hit Obi-Wan with a stern expression. Okay, how know you?
Obi-Wan sighed. He had the feeling that Yoda wasnt
going to like what he did either. While Sidious was
doing the second mind probe on me, I used his probe into my mind as a way to
access his.
WHAT?
Obi-Wan felt like a first-year padawan
again under the little masters glare. I wasnt in there long. Sidious felt me in his mind and closed me out.
Very dangerous what you did is! Yoda thumped his
stick on the ground for emphasis.
I know, Master. But I felt I had to try. Sidious wasnt angry that I did it. He was simplyamazed
that I was brazen enough to try it. Obi-Wan tried not to fidget. Both Yoda and
Padme were looking at him like angry parents.
Hmmph! Risked too much you
did, Obi-Wan. Yodas gaze finally softened. Felt through the Force I did,
when you almost died. Yodas heart hurt at just the remembrance. Very
difficult to bear your loss would be.
Obi-Wan had never thought to hear such words from
Yoda. Thank you, Master. ImIm sorry if I distressed you.
Yoda sighed. Did what you felt you had to do, you
did.
Padme felt
bad for heaping guilt on Obi-Wan. She moved over to him and took his hand. No
matter what they did to him, he never gave into the darkness. He was amazing.
Yoda moved over to Obi-Wan and placed a clawed hand on
his arm. Know this I do. Proud of you I am, Obi-Wan.
Thank you, Master. Obi-Wan lowered his eyes. He was
embarrassed by all the attention.
Yoda moved back to his cushion. Disturbed I am by
this turn of events. Stop hunting for you the Emperor will not. And
Vaderrevenge on his mind will be.
Padmes
attention drifted from the conversation. She couldnt help but wonder if Vader
had received what shed left for him. She hadnt told Obi-Wan about it and had
no intention of doing so. She knew he would not approve. But she had done what
she felt she had to do what her heart had needed for her to do. She noticed
Obi-Wan give her a sideways glance. Padme did her
best to push the thoughts out of her mind. She fervently hoped Obi-Wan wouldnt
question her about it.
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Sidious
couldnt help but smile as he read the datapad. Oh,
Vader is going to LOVE this! He cackled as he got up and strode out of his
office at Imperial Headquarters. He walked into Vaders office and deposited
the datapad on the desk.
The smile stayed on his face as he walked to the
landing pad. Vader was due to arrive any minute. He had been dreading having
Vader back. He had wanted to have Obi-Wan at his side as his apprentice by now.
He had wanted to be rid of Vader. But now he had some pleasure in Vaders
return sadistic pleasure. The Emperor firmly locked his mental shields as
Vaders shuttle arrived.
Vader strode down the ramp and bowed to the Emperor.
The Emperor started heading back inside. Well done,
Vader.
Master, I felt adisturbance in the Force a couple of
days ago. Has something happened? Vader knew that something had happened, but
wasnt sure what.
Obi-Wan and Padme have
escaped.
Vader stopped dead in his tracks. WHAT? How?
They were rescued by people dressed as Stormtroopers. It was rather brilliantly done. They escaped
without a trace. No one saw anything. They got off planet, we know that much. Sidious wasnt about to tell Vader that he partially blamed
himself for his lack of vigilence.
Anger flowed through Vader. I cant believe Obi-Wan is out of my grasp again! I will find him and I will kill
him!
The Emperor stopped and pointed a bony finger at
Vaders chest. You will NOT kill him. So help me Vader, if you do, you will be
as good as dead yourself.
Vader was stunned. Why would his master still want
Obi-Wan alive, after all hed done, even after escaping? If it were anyone
else, he knew that his master would want that person dead. Jealousy flared
within him.
Sidious
continued walking. He could feel Vaders jealousy. Good. He should be
jealous of Obi-Wan. Sidious stopped in front of
the door to Vaders office and waited for Vader to catch up. There are some
things on your desk requiring your attention, including a note left by your
former wife. Sidious turned and headed for his
office, smiling gleefully at the shock emanating from Vader. He would leave all
senses attuned to his apprentice for a while. He was really going to enjoy
this.
Vader entered his office and saw the datapad on his desk. He hesitantly picked it up and started
to read.
Vader,
There are some things that I had to say to
you, once and for all. You seem to have forgotten a few things in your
transformation. I felt the need to remind you If you had truly loved me, you
never would have been able to turn your back on me the way you did. Did you
ever really love me, or was I just an obsession that you had to possess? The
promise of power wouldnt have been an enticement if you had truly meant the
vows you spoke to me on our wedding day. You broke your vows and you broke my
heart.
The Jedi took you in when they didnt have
to. They took a chance on you, even though most thought you were too old to
begin training. They placed you with Obi-Wan, a Jedi
most young ones would have loved to have as their master. You were with a great
Jedi, a great master and a great man. Did you appreciate that fact? No. You
grew more and more jealous of the respect and affection others readily showed
him. You felt that, being the
Obi-Wan Kenobi is strong, courageous,
powerful, loyal, dependable and full of light. Obi-Wan knows
the true meaning of love. He has stood by me through thick and thin. He has
risked his life for me time and time again. He has given me reassurance,
strength, fierce loyalty and unconditional love. He has given me all of the
things that I had once hoped to receive from you, but didnt. My heart is now
and forevermore Obi-Wans. You no longer have any
residence there. You are dead to me. I hope that I never have to lay eyes on
you again.
Padme
Sidious sat in
his chair with his eyes closed, smiling at the torrent of emotions coming from
his apprentice. Suddenly, a howl of rage hit his ears. His smile got bigger.
The next morning, Obi-Wan, Padme
and Yoda were again sitting in the hut talking. Yoda pierced Obi-Wan with his
wise eyes. More to talk about we have. When the time comes, start training
Luke you must.
No! Obi-Wan spoke with more vehemence than he
intended. Both Yoda and Padme looked taken aback.
No, he said more softly. When the time comes, I will bring Luke here for you
to train.
Ah. Think you still that had I trained Anakin, turn
to the Dark Side he would not.
Yes, Master. I failed in training Anakin. I do not
want to repeat that with Luke. Obi-Wan found it hard to even look Yoda in the
eye.
Yoda noticed Padme was about
to say something, but he silenced her with a nod of his head. Short memory you
have, Obi-Wan.
Obi-Wan raised his head. What do you mean?
Forgotten you have, that a Sith a former padawan of
MINE became.
Obi-Wan opened his mouth to speak, but closed it
again. He HAD forgotten about that.
Yoda shook his head. Know you that on the past I do
not like to dwell. But reminded of some things you must be. Yoda pointed his
stick at Obi-Wan for emphasis. Told me you once did of a warning you gave Qui-Gon, not long before he died.
You mean about Anakin?
Yes. What say you to him?
I Obi-Wan glanced at Padme.
I told him that Anakin was dangerous.
Yoda nodded his head again. What say Qui-Gon?
He told me flat-out that he was not dangerous. He
made it pretty clear that he didnt want to hear anything negative about
Anakin.
Stubborn Qui-Gon was. Share
you did the same misgivings about Anakin that I had. But later, willing you were to defy the Council to train Anakin. Why?
Master, you know why. It was Qui-Gons
dying request. I could not refuse him. And I wasnt going to break my word to
him.
Yoda thumped his stick. Wrong Qui-Gon
was to request that of you! Not because qualified you were not. Wrong it was to
place that burden on you.
Qui-Gon just felt strongly
about
Yoda thumped his stick on the ground again. Friend
Qui-Gon was. Defend him, you need not. However, too
focused on HIS belief about what was right Qui-Gon
was. Too willing in those times he was to defy the Council and hurt those
closest to him. Yodas eyes seemed to bore right into Obi-Wans
soul.
Padme could
tell that Yoda had meant Obi-Wan. It broke her heart to see the pain in Obi-Wans eyes before he ducked his head down. Qui-Gon had obviously done something to hurt Obi-Wan deeply.
She couldnt help but wonder what had happened.
Obi-Wan finally looked up at Yoda, almost looking to
Yoda like a child again. But Qui-Gon believed in
Anakin so deeply. I wanted to believe also, because I believed in Qui-Gon.
Know this I do, Obi-Wan. Tried hard to believe in
Anakin, you did. But misgivings you still had. Yoda sighed. Listen to your
concerns about Anakin through the years, the Council did not. Preoccupied we
were with the Sith and the
Separatists. Just what Sidious intended this was.
Padme knew
about Obi-Wan having some concerns about Anakin through the years, but she
wanted to hear Yodas take on it. Obi-Wan brought concerns to the Council
about Anakin?
Obi-Wan tried to jump in. Master, I
Answer her question, I will! Yodas look brooked no
argument. Come to us many times Obi-Wan did. Deeply concerned he was about
Anakins lack of emotional control. Concerned he was also about Anakins
arrogance and defiance. Yoda shook his head sorrowfully. Distracted I was.
Forgot I did the dangers I had sensed years before in Anakin.
Obi-Wan didnt like hearing this from Yoda. Master,
it certainly wasnt your fault!
Yoda straightened up, face again neutral. If blame
you are looking for, plenty to go around there is. But remember you must one
thing, live life for a padawan a Jedi Master cannot.
Theirs to make decisions still are. Made his own choices Anakin did.
Padme jumped
in. Thats right! Obi-Wan, he was a grown man and a Jedi Knight. He is the one
who decided to turn his back on the Jedi Order, on you and on me. His desire
for power overrode his commitment to the Jedi and his supposed love for me. And
considering you are the diametrical opposite of him in most characteristics,
how you can blame yourself for what he did is beyond me!
Obi-Wan didnt know what to say. He glanced over at
Yoda, who was nodding approvingly at Padme.
Speak the truth, Padme
does. Listen you should, Obi-Wan. Yoda headed towards his little kitchen to
make more of his favorite tea. He patted Obi-Wans
shoulder affectionately as he went by.
Padme
scooted over to Obi-Wan. She took his bearded chin in her hand, looking deep
into his eyes. I meant everything I said. YOU ARE NOT TO BLAME!
Obi-Wan couldnt help but smile a bit. Yes, Maam.
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Sidious sat at
his desk, chair turned towards the window. He was still fuming from the reports
hed received from several locations throughout the galaxy. There was no trace
of Obi-Wan anywhere! He hissed his breath through his teeth. Patience.
I have to have patience. I will find him again.
With the amount of reward Sidious
was offering to whoever found Obi-Wan, he was sure that eventually he would
have him back. Only this time, Sidious would make
sure there was
Sidious could
sense Vader heading towards his office. He hissed his breath in annoyance. He
schooled his features as Vader strode in.
Master, I request permission to go search for
Obi-Wan.
No.
Vader tried to control his anger. Im the best person
you have to search for him. No one else will be as thorough.
Frankly, Lord Vader, I dont trust you to bring him
back to me in one piece. I dont trust your emotional control, especially after
the little love letter from Padme. Sidious little dig got the desired response.
White-hot fury and jealousy coursed through Vader. He
tried to keep his voice level. Master, I dont understand why you dont want
him dead! If it were anyone else, you
Sidious was
now on his feet. He leaned over his desk with a look that could melt durasteel. I told you once before that my reasons for
wanting Obi-Wan alive are my own. That still holds true. He stared at Vader,
daring him to challenge this.
Vader wisely decided not to push his master on the
matter. He worked to get his emotions under some semblance of control. What
would you have me do, Master?
Many planets on the outer rim are still resisting
Imperial rule. I want you to make it clear to each of those planets that our
rule and our presence are not up for debate. Establish a garrison on each
planet if you must. I want my hold on the galaxy to be complete. Sidious thought to himself, The
added benefit is that you will be away from me for a long, long time!
Yes, Master. Vader started to turn away, but Sidious spoke up again.
I take it that you are clear on the fact that I do
not want you to search for Obi-Wan?
Vader gritted his teeth. Yes, Master.
If I should tell you to do so, it will be a time of
my own choosing.
Yes, Master. Vader left as quickly as he could. He
had come back to Coruscant with the hopes that his
successful mission would have helped to change his masters attitude towards
him. He could not have been more wrong. His masters attitude towards him was
worse!
Does he blame me for Obi-Wans escape? Vader didnt think that could be
it. It almost seems as though he didnt want me to come back. He started
to sift through all that had transpired since Obi-Wan was
first captured. And like a puzzle, all the pieces finally came into place. Obi-Wan
was telling the truth! My master wants HIM as his
apprentice instead of me!
Vaders world seemed to be crashing in around him. He
now understood what he had been unwilling to contemplate before. Someway,
somehow, Sidious had developed some affection for
Obi-Wan. It seemed so clear to him now. His master never reacted in anger
towards Obi-Wan, only amusement and even respect. His master even seemed
protective of Obi-Wan. How can this be?
Vader found his hatred for Obi-Wan growing even
hotter. Obi-Wan Kenobi was the bane of his existence. Obi-Wan had taken
EVERYTHING from him! It had always been this way. No matter what, it had always
been Obi-Wan who got the attention, the respect and the affection of others.
Even though HE was the Chosen One, he had never quite measured up to Obi-Wan in
their eyes.
Vader knew that he had to be rid of Obi-Wan once and
for all. He didnt care what Sidiousdid tohim. He was going to hunt Obi-Wan down!
Padme
crawled out of her bedding, careful not to disturb Obi-Wan, who was sleeping
soundly next to her. She had noticed that Yoda was still awake. She desperately
wanted to talk with him privately.
Yoda watched as Padme
crawled towards him. He had known that she wanted to talk with him alone. He
had stayed awake for this purpose. He waited for her on the far side of the
hut.
Padme hoped
Yoda wouldnt think she was prying. Master Yoda, will you please tell meWhat
did Qui-Gon do to Obi-Wan to hurt him so badly? She
spoke in a low tone, fervently hoping that Obi-Wan wouldnt wake up.
A bit of sadness entered Yodas eyes. Long story this
is. But all of it you will need to hear to truly
understand.
I want to know. All of it. Padme
made herself comfortable as Yoda began to tell his
tale.
Will of the Force it was for Qui-Gon
to train Obi-Wan. Sensed this I did. Fight the Forces will Qui-Gon did.
Why?
An apprentice Qui-Gon had
before. Xanatos was his name. Turned to the Dark Side
he did. Loved him like a son Qui-Gon had. Blind to
his faults he had been. Showed him much affection he had, but enough discipline
he had not. Took the betrayal hard Qui-Gon did. Vowed never to take another apprentice.
Padme nodded
her head in understanding. He blamed himself. He didnt want to make the same
mistakes with another apprentice.
Yes. Made it clear the Force eventually did that Obi-Wan his apprentice should be. Agreed he finally
did, but determined he was to not let Obi-Wan into his heart.
Boy, thats an impossible task, Padme
said wryly.
Yodas eyes glowed with affection. Indeed. Find it
hard Qui-Gon did. But kept Obi-Wan at an emotional
distance he did nonetheless. Tested their fragile relationship was soon after.
Know you that Obi-Wan left the Jedi Order for a time?
Padmes eyes
went wide with shock. No!
Leave he did. Thirteen he was. On a planet engulfed
in a civil war he and Qui-Gon were. Gathered together
the young ones of this planet did to try and stop it. Friends Obi-Wan made. Got
caught up in their cause he did.
Padme
released her breath. Wow. That just seems to go so against the Obi-Wan I
know."
Deep compassion for others Obi-Wan has always had.
Wanted to help end the war he did wanted to help his friends. Unwilling to
stay Qui-Gon was. Torn loyalties Obi-Wan faced. Won
out the strong bond of friendship did over the weak bond with Qui-Gon. Yoda sighed. Very angry and hurt Qui-Gon was. But knew I did that Obi-Wan would be back. And
come back to the
Padme leaned
in to Yoda. So thats why he grew to be so loyal to the Jedi Code. But, again,
it seems out of character for him to be willing to defy the Council in order to
train Anakin.
Hmmph. Won out his loyalty
to Qui-Gon did over the Council at times. Extremely
loyal to Qui-Gon Obi-Wan became, once accept Obi-Wan
back as his apprentice Qui-Gon did. Stronger than ever their bond became. Grow to love Obi-Wan
very much Qui-Gon did, but comfortable in showing it
he was not. Greatly needed affection and words of encouragement Obi-Wan did.
Yoda smiled slightly. Tried to provide some of that I did.
Padme smiled
warmly at him. Im so glad you did.
Insecure in his relationship with Qui-Gon Obi-Wan was. Admit it he would not. Buried it deep he
did. Proud Qui-Gon was of Obi-Wan, but hard for
Obi-Wan to see it was. As older Obi-Wan got, butt heads he and Qui-Gon did more often. A tendency Qui-Gon
had tobend the rules. Approve Obi-Wan did not.
Padme nodded
her head in understanding. His loyalty to Qui-Gon
warred with his loyalty to the Jedi Code. That probably made him even more
insecure in his relationship with Qui-Gon.
Yes. When come before the Council about Anakin Qui-Gon did, saw I did his certainty about Anakins path. Knew that steely determination I did, as did Obi-Wan. Warn
Qui-Gon Obi-Wan did, that authorize training of
Anakin the Council would not. Believe him Qui-Gon did
not. Right Obi-Wan was.
Padme was
surprised. The Council had decided that Anakin shouldnt be trained?
Yoda nodded. Too old and too full of fear he was.
Disagreed Qui-Gon did. Hastily
requested he did to take Anakin as his padawan.
Padme paled.
Was Obi-Wan present when he did this?
Sadness was evident in Yodas eyes. Present he was.
He watched as Padme put her hand over her mouth,
unable to speak. Felt Obi-Wans sharp pain I did.
Know I do that Qui-Gon felt it also.
Padmes eyes
were watery. Her voice was husky with emotion. Obi saw it as a confirmation of
all his doubts. She worked hard to keep her voice low. How could Qui-Gon do that to him? Toss him aside like that?
Know this I do not. Confront Qui-Gon
I wished, when settled down things became. That chance I never received. Found
out later I did the rest. Soon after, warn Qui-Gon
about Anakins danger Obi-Wan did. Dismissed him Qui-Gon
did. Later, apologize to Qui-Gon Obi-Wan did for
their disagreement.
Padmes eyes
narrowed in anger. Let me guess, Qui-Gon didnt
return the favor?
Apologize Qui-Gon did not.
But say he did that wiser Obi-Wan was and a great Jedi Knight he would be.
Padme
crossed her arms. Well, at least he acknowledged that much! But that doesnt
take the place of an apology. He owed Obi that!
Right before the battle with the Sith this was.
A thought hit Padme like a
speeder. Qui-Gons last words were about Anakin! He
asked Obi-Wan to train Anakin, knowing full-well that Obi-Wan would never turn
down his dying request; and also knowing full-well Obi-Wans
misgivings about Anakin. He laid a huge burden on Obis shoulders! Padme wanted to get up and pace, but the size of the hut
wouldnt allow that. Her agitation was quite evident. I used to respect Qui-Gon, but not anymore! Its a good thing hes already joined
the Force, because Id have some choice words for him!
Yoda couldnt help but smile at Padme.
Like a Regalian Tiger protecting her cub you are
with Obi-Wan.
Padme smiled
sheepishly. Yes, I guess I am. She looked over at Obi-Wans
sleeping form. I wish that I could take away his pain.
Ah, take away his pain you cannot. But help him heal
you can. Why I told you all of this, that is. Yoda shook his head. Much pain,
much guilt Obi-Wan carries. Help him heal you can. Gift to Obi-Wan from the
Force you are.
Thank you, Master Yoda! That means everything to me.
Padme looked down and played with one of the ties to
her sleep robe. Theres something else I need to ask, Master Yoda. She looked
up to find Yoda looking at her expectantly. IsWhoWhich one of us, she
glanced at Obi-Wan meaningfully, will join the Force first? If you know,
please tell me! I NEED to know! Padme watched as
Yoda closed his eyes in concentration. As much as she needed to know, she
dreaded the answer. She tried not to fidget as she waited.
Yodas eyes opened again. Join the Force first, you
will.
Relief swept through Padme
as she let out the breath shed been holding.
Yoda studied her. Relieved you are.
Padme nodded
her head, now starting to feel guilty. I know Im being selfish. Im relieved
that I dont have to endure his death, while knowing that he will have to
endure mine. Its just that I know that I wouldnt be able to live without him.
His death would destroy me.
Yoda looked at her with understanding in his eyes.
Know this the Force does. But a permanent separation death does not have to
be. Teach you I can to maintain your identity in the Force.
But I thought that only Force-sensitives
could do that.
Be visible or heard by the living you will not. For
the Jedi alone that is and much skill it requires. Contact and communication
you will have with the Force-sensitives who have
joined the Force.
Joy filled Padme and beamed
out of her eyes. That means that I will get to be with Obi-Wan forever!
Yoda was warmed by her joy. It does.
Luke and Leia! Ill
get to be with them as well! Padme grabbed Yoda in a
hug and kissed his cheek. Oh, thank you, Master Yoda! She noticed Obi-Wan
stirring. Her buzzing excitement had woken him from a sound sleep.
Obi-Wan rubbed his eyes. Whats going on? He smiled
at the joy emanating from Padme.
Padme
crawled over to Obi-Wan and kissed him on the cheek. I promise Ill tell you
in the morning. Why dont you go back to sleep? You need your rest.
Obi-Wan was about to protest when he heard Yoda say,
Sleep, Obi-Wan. Obi-Wan felt instantly groggy. The little troll had used a
sleep suggestion! Master, thats not(yawn)fair! He
fell back into his pillow, sound asleep.
Yoda chuckled. Work well on him that always did.
Sleep he needs, as do I. Time for bed it is. Yoda knew that Obi-Wan would have
words for him in the morning. He didnt care. Obi-Wans
body had been put through so much. He wasnt going to let the stubborn young
master forgo the rest he needed.
Padme,
however, was too excited to sleep. She grabbed her journal and a small lamp and
went outside into the dark mist. She was eager to record her conversation with
Yoda while it was still fresh in her mind. She sat down, got as comfortable as
she could and started tapping away into her datapad.
Sorry for the wait! I hope it'll be worth it to you!
o
Several hours later, Padme
was still writing in her journal. Strong arms wrapped around her from behind. A
huge smile graced her face as the excitement at what Yoda had told her
returned. She shivered a bit as Obi-Wans breath hit
her ear.
Are you going to tell me what has you so excited, or
are you going to keep me in suspense? Padme turned
around to face him. Obi-Wan was awed by the look of
sheer joy that graced her face. It gave her a glow and a beauty that took his
breath away.
No, Ill tell you! Padme
tried to keep herself from talking too fast. Yoda gave me the most wonderful
news I could have ever hoped to hear! Oh, Obi, its incredible!
Then tell me! Obi-Wan laughed. He couldnt help but
be excited to hear her news.
Yoda told me that he can teach me how to maintain my
identity when I join the Force! I wont be able to be seen or heard by the
living like you, but Ill be able to communicate with the Force-sensitives who are there! Padme
watched as realization dawned in Obi-Wans eyes.
Obi, Ill be able to be with you forever!
Obi-Wan couldnt find any words to say. He pulled Padme into a fierce hug. Tears of joy flowed down both
faces. They finally pulled apart, wiping the tears off each others face. Both
were now glowing with joy.
Padme took
Obi-Wans hands in hers. I feel like I can face
anything! Death holds no fear for me now! Of course, I would like to spend as
much time with you as I can on this side of the Force, but I will be satisfied
no matter what happens now.
Obi-Wan smiled at Padme. I
knew that I would be with my dear friends again upon entering the Force
friends like Bant, Garen
and Reeft. That knowledge has helped me to bear their
deaths. Now knowing you will be there, it will feel like going home.
Padme
snuggled into Obi-Wans arms. Yes. Home is wherever
you are. She sighed contentedly as Obi-Wan kissed the top of her head. And
Ill get to be with Luke and Leia when their time
comes. Ill finally get to know my children personally!
Obi-Wan smiled hugely. Thats right! Oh, Padme, how wonderful for you and for
them!
Padme turned
her head to look at him. I have no doubts that they will love being with you,
as well. We will all be together as a family, forever.
Obi-Wan sat with Yoda, who was enjoying another cup of
his tea. Obi-Wan glanced over at a now sound-asleep Padme.
Padme told me what you told her. Thank you so much
for that, Master.
Yoda looked at Obi-Wan warmly. Glad to do it, I am.
Padme also said something
about me being seen and heard by the living. Id heard stories about this being
possible for a Jedi, but are they really true?
Yoda nodded his head. True they are. Teach you I
will. Important this will be for Luke and Leia. Teach
them we can, even after death.
Obi-Wan nodded, looking down at his hands. Master, what do you thinkabout me and Padme?
Yoda placed a clawed hand on Obi-Wans
arm. Need my approval, you do not.
Obi-Wan looked up into Yodas eyes. Yes, I do. I
mean, this goes against the Code
Obi-Wan, gone those days are. Gone is the Jedi Order
as we knew it. Yes, good it is for a Jedi unattached to be. However, normal
times these are not. Going off on missions you are not. Hiding your mission now
is. Until the time for training Luke, waiting your mission is. An easy life you
have not had, Obi-Wan. A gift to you from the Force Padme
is. Yoda noticed Obi-Wans look of surprise. Help
you bear your burdens she will. Deny this gift you should not. If my approval you seek, have it you do.
Id not thought of it that way, Master. Thank you.
Yoda smiled and patted Obi-Wans
hand. Suffered much you two have. Need each other you do.
Yoda could tell that a burden had been lifted from Obi-Wan. The smile Obi-Wan
gave him warmed his heart. Yoda grunted as he got up to get more tea and a
cookie. Pushed aside for a time some of the old rules must be. Necessary
attachment might be if built back up the Jedi Order is. However, stray too far
from it they must not. And get back to the old Code they someday must.
Obi-Wan nodded his head. I agree, Master. The Code is
too important to let go. He smiled at Yoda as he sat back down in front of
him. And I am prepared to do what I must, including starting Lukes training.
Knew this I did. Rely on you I always could. Yoda
set down his cup of tea. Start training you I will on appearing to the living,
once a part of the Force you become.
Darth Vader paced around the bridge of his Star
Destroyer. He stopped at a viewport and looked down
at a rusty-hued planet. He was in the Outer Rim as ordered. To Vader, this
mission Sidious had sent him on was an infuriating
distraction from his real goal. But he would not so blatantly disobey his
master as to neglect the mission entirely. After all, he didnt want to be
killed before having had the pleasure of killing Obi-Wan.
Vader had the people under his command handling most
of this mission of bringing wayward planets under the control of the Empire. He
would only step in if it became absolutely necessary. Vader impatiently tapped
the side of the datapad in his hand. On it was the
list of planets that had yet to bow to the rule of the Empire. He let out a
snort of disgust. Tatooine was on it. Hed save that
horrible wasteland for last. He hated his former homeworld
with a passion. He would definitely let others handle the work there. He had
no desire to set foot on Tatooine again.
As Vader stared out the viewport
in contemplation, an idea formed in his head. He turned and walked across the
bridge towards the turbolift, purpose evident in his
stride. Everyone gave him a wide berth. Vader smiled beneath his mask. He loved
having that effect on people.
Vader paused as he arrived at his destination. He
looked down row after row of probe droids. Vader smiled again. Perfect.
Hed program these droids to search for Obi-Wan, and launch a few at every
destination on this mission. Hed let the probes do the searching for him,
especially since every bounty hunter in the galaxy had already been hired by
his master. He would search through the Force, as well. If Obi-Wan was nearby, hed feel him.
Picking up a probe droid, Vader quickly got to work. It
wont be long now, Obi-Wan. Soon, I will be rid of you forever!
A few days later, Padme was
sitting and listening while Obi-Wan and Yoda reminisced. She knew that they
were both trying to prolong their time together as much as possible. Yoda had
already taught them the things they needed to know before joining the Force. Padme felt that they should probably get going, but she
didnt want to be the one to end this reunion.
Padme was
brought out of her thoughts as a sudden sorrowful silence engulfed Obi-Wan and
Yoda. They had all come to the same conclusion at the same time. Yoda sighed
heavily. Time it is for you to go.
Obi-Wan nodded. He had hoped that by delaying the
inevitable, he could ease the sadness of this goodbye. It had been a false
hope. Sadness gripped his heart like a vise. He glanced at Padme.
We better get packed.
Padme nodded
and went with him to pack up their belongings. She wished there was something
she could do to ease the pain of their parting. Silence reigned as they
gathered their bags and set them outside by the door. Obi-Wan quietly sent the
bags sailing over the swamp to their ship. He turned back to the doorway, where
Padme was saying goodbye to Yoda. Oh Force, help
me get through this.
Padme knelt
in front of Yoda, smiling sadly. Thank you for everything youve done, Master
Yoda.
Yoda gave her a soft smile. Glad to do it I was. He
watched as Padme got up and moved aside to let him
and Obi-Wan have some privacy. Yoda fought to keep his calm center. The moment
he had dreaded since they had arrived was now here.
Obi-Wan came and knelt in front of the little master.
He was trying to swallow down the lump that had formed in his throat. I shall
miss you, Master.
Yodas ears drooped. Sadness was etched on his
normally neutral face. Miss you too, I will, Obi-Wan. He placed a clawed hand
on Obi-Wans shoulder. Meet again this side of the
Force, we will not.
I know. Obi-Wan could barely speak above a whisper.
Master, I cannot even begin to describe what you mean to me. You are my mentor
and my dear friend.
Dear friend to me you will always be, Obi-Wan. Yoda
smiled again, pulling a fond memory from his past. Knew I did, from the first
time I saw you as an infant, that important to me you would become. Knew I did that our lives would be linked.
Obi-Wan couldnt help but be surprised. But you were
always the first to say that the future is always changing.
True that is. But change that
feeling did not. Grew stronger with time it did. Tried I did not to let
that color my behavior towards you. Yoda smiled again warmly. But affection
for you I could not help but feel.
Obi-Wan smiled back. The feeling was mutual.
Yoda cleared his throat and straightened himself with
determination. Remember we must, that this is not truly goodbye. Eternity
together we will spend. Work we will do together, even after death. Someone I
would prefer to work with more, there is not.
Obi-Wan smiled faintly. I couldnt have said it
better myself. He pulled Yoda into a gentle hug. Goodbye, Master. May the
Force be with you.
May the Force be with you, Obi-Wan.
Yoda watched as Obi-Wan got up and came to stand beside Padme.
"Take care of each other.
Obi-Wan and Padme looked at
each other and then back at Yoda. We will. Obi-Wan took one last look at Yoda
before picking Padme up and setting out across the
swamp. As he made his way towards their ship, a voice entered his mind. Until
we meet again, Obi-Wan.
Obi-Wan and Padme made their
way across the Tatooine sand towards their hut.
Obi-Wan had parked their cruiser in a small cave somewhat nearby the hut.
Obi-Wan had been careful to be sure they werent spotted. He didnt want to
take any chances of the cruiser being spotted by anyone who might happen to be
in the area. If they needed to get off-planet in a hurry, that cruiser was
their only hope.
Padme wiped
sweat off her forehead with her sleeve. Obi-Wan, how in the world can you
stand to have that cloak on?
Obi-Wan gave Pame a wry
look. If I take it off, itll be just another thing to carry. As it was, his
arms were completely full of luggage and boxes.
Padme
shifted her own load. I sure wish you could work your assembly line magic
here.
Believe me, so do I. Unfortunately, Im going to have
to keep my use of the Force to a minimum. We cant chance having Vader or the
Emperor in the area and feeling my presence.
Padme again
maneuvered the items in her arms so she could wipe her forehead. She noticed
that Obi-Wan was trying to blink back the sweat
dripping into his eyes. Obi, wait. She put down the luggage in her arms and
wiped his face with her sleeve.
Obi-Wan grinned at her from behind his load. Thank
you!
Your welcome. Padme picked her items back up. Youre carrying too much
AND you should have taken off that blasted cloak! She resumed her trek through
the sand.
I want to make as few of these trips as I possibly
can. And Ill take off the blasted cloak when we get to the hut. Obi-Wan
threw her a mock-exasperated look. Mother.
Padme shot
daggers at Obi-Wan with her eyes. Obi-Wan Kenobi, if my arms werent full, Id
smack you!
Obi-Wan gave her a rakish smile. I know.
Finally, they arrived at the quaint little hut.
Obi-Wan stooped to unload his arms near the door. He opened the door for Padme to enter. Obi-Wan took off his cloak and shook it out
before following her in. Well, home sweet home. Like I said, it isnt much.
Obi-Wan looked around. And now that I see it again, I find it rather
Perfect. Padme looked at
him with a smile.
Obi-Wan raised an eyebrow. The word I was going to
use was pathetic.
Oh, no its not! Obi, I love it! Padme
put her arms around his waist and kissed him. Well be here together. Thatll
make it perfect.
Obi-Wan didnt look convinced. He was still surveying
the small living area. Ill extend this room out for you.
Obi, you dont have to. Really.
Obi-Wan nodded his head. Yes, I do. I want to make
this more of a real home for you. He put his finger on her mouth before she
could protest. I know, I know, all you need is me to make it home. He smiled
at her. But humor me on this, okay?
Okay. Padme gave Obi-Wan
another kiss. Well, Im going to go splash some cold water on my face and then
we can go get another load.
Why dont you stay and start unpacking, Ill go get
the rest of the stuff. Obi-Wan started to head out the door.
No, Im coming with you. If we both go, then one more
trip should do it. Im not going to make you have to go back out there twice.
Just give me a minute. Padme headed off to where she
assumed was the fresher.
A while later, Obi-Wan and Padme
were unpacking their things. Obi-Wan looked up from his work. Are you sure you
want to do this right now? We can always go into town tomorrow.
Yes, Im sure. I dont want to wait. Padme threw him a box. If were going to go into town,
well need to don our disguises. Padme laughed at
the look Obi-Wan threw her. You have to admit, Bail thought of everything.
Yes, he did. But youre the lucky one. All you have
to do is put on a wig. Obi-Wan looked at the box in his hand with disgust. I
have to put this gunk in my hair.
Padme
laughed. Obi, its only hair color. At least Bail got
you the kind that washes out! Obi-Wan didnt look any happier.
Padme went
over and put her hands on his shoulders. Your natural color would be like a
neon sign to anyone looking for you. There arent many men with
strawberry-blond hair. She stepped back and studied him. Which,
by the way, I appreciate. I love the color of your hair. Its so
uniquely you.
Hmmph. I
guess I should go color my uniqueness, then. Obi-Wan started towards the
fresher, holding the box of hair color as if it held the plague.
Padme
watched him with open amusement. She followed him into the fresher. Before you
do that, we should cut your hair.
Obi-Wan rolled his eyes. Youre enjoying this, arent
you?
Padme
grinned at him. Yes, actually, I am! Now, be a good boy and cooperate. Why
dont you take your tunic off? Otherwise, its just going to get covered with
hair and stained by the hair color.
Obi-Wan obliged and sat down for her to cut his hair.
He tried to be patient as he watched more and more of his hair fall to the
floor. I sure hope she knows what shes doing!
Padme stood
back. There! All done. She reached for a towel and
wiped the hair off his chest and back.
Obi-Wan cautiously went to the mirror. He let out a
sigh of relief. His hair was short, to be sure, though not as short as it was
when he was a padawan. You actually did a pretty
good job.
Thanks, Padme replied
dryly. She looked at his reflection in the mirror. You do realize that the
beard is going to have to go, as well.
Obi-Wan spoke softly. Yes, I know. He was reluctant
to shave it off. It felt to him like the last vestige of a former life, one he
still wanted to hold on to.
Padme
wrapped her arms around him from behind. She rested her cheek on his shoulder
as she spoke quietly. That beard is not what makes you a Jedi.
Obi-Wan gazed at her in mild surprise. She had known
what he was thinking.
Padme moved
her hand so that it was covering his heart. THIS is what makes you a Jedi. Your heart and your soul. Take away all the trappings, take
away the
Obi-Wan interlaced his fingers with Padmes and pulled her even closer. He rested his head atop
hers. "I love you.
Padme smiled
at him in the mirror. I love you, too. She felt so completely at home at that
moment. She was more convinced then ever that she wanted to do this today. She
hated to pull away from him, but she wanted to hurry up and get going. Padme kissed Obi-Wans shoulder.
Let me know when youre done shaving. I want to see you before you color your
hair.
Obi-Wan sighed. Alright.
When Obi-Wan reemerged from the fresher a while later,
Padme openly gaped as he came towards her. Wow. It
was all she could think to say. She felt transported back to the time when she
first met him. He looked very much the same as he had then. The smooth youthful
face was more rugged now. There were now worry lines around his eyes and his
mouth. His face now spoke of wisdom and experience. Padme
found this Obi-Wan to be far more handsome than the one who entered her life
eighteen years before.
Padme smiled
at him. Obi-Wan Kenobi, you are the most handsome man Ive ever seen.
Obi-Wan turned pink. Oh, Padme,
no Im not!
Oh, yes you are! Padme
went up to him and put her hands on his now-smooth face. She shook her head as
her finger traced the cleft in his chin. Why in the world would you want to
cover such a handsome face with hair?
Obi-Wan laughed. If I told you, you wouldnt believe
me. He noticed Padme raise her eyebrow at that. But
thats a story for another time.
Padme hooked
her arms around Obi-Wans waist. Obi, will you do me
a big favor?
Obi-Wan gave her a lopsided grin. Maybe.
Padme
flashed him her most beguiling smile. Will you stay clean-shaven for me?
Before he could answer, she pulled him into a long, passionate kiss. When they
pulled apart for air, Padme rested her cheek against
his. She whispered in his ear, It sure makes kissing a lot more enjoyable.
Obi-Wan pulled back to look at Padme.
He was grinning from ear to ear. You sure know how to get what you want!
Padme looked
at him innocently. Is that a yes?
Yes, thats a yes.
Padme
grinned. Good. Now go color your hair!
Obi-Wan bowed to her. Yes, Milady.
Obi-Wan and Padme walked
into the nearest town later that afternoon. It was quite a long hike from their
hut. Obi-Wan had refused to even consider taking the cruiser. It would have
brought them unwanted attention. He glanced at Padme
walking beside him. They were both dressed in the simple white (cooler)
garments of the natives. Padme had on her straight,
shoulder-length blond wig. Obi-Wans hair was colored
black.
Obi-Wan spoke to her quietly. Lets visit the clerks
office first. After that, well split up. We shouldnt spend too much time
together here in town. Im sure the Emperor knows that were still together.
Padme nodded
her head. She certainly didnt want to underestimate the Emperor. But she
wasnt going to let him keep her from this, either.
They walked into the clerks small office. An Alconian male sat at the desk. He looked up from his work.
May we help you?
Obi-Wan took Padmes hand in
his. Yes, wed like to get married.
As they walked out of the clerks office, Obi-Wan
pulled Padme into an alley. Weve got some trouble.
Padmes eyes
grew big. Whats the matter?
Obi-Wans voice was calm and
steady. Theres someone in this town looking for me. I can feel it. A bounty hunter most likely.
Could we have been traced somehow?
No. This person has no idea whether or not were
here. Undoubtedly, the Emperor has hired every known bounty hunter in the
galaxy. Hes leaving no stone unturned. This is just one of many planets being
searched.
Padme
relaxed a bit at that. Thats good news, anyway.
Im not taking any chances, though. I was going to
have us split up and shop for our supplies, but not now.
Why? We could still do that.
No. I can use the Force to convince the people in the
shops that they know me and have seen me around before. You will be a very
obvious stranger. And going around together would be a great danger. I know
that it would attract the attention of the bounty hunter.
Padme knew
to trust Obi-Wans instincts. Okay, so what do we
do?
Im going to go buy you a speeder bike. I want you to
go home. Youll be safe there. Im not going to risk your staying here.
Padme took
Obi-Wans hand. But what about
you? I dont want you to risk staying here, either!
Ill be okay, Padme. We
need supplies. Ill get enough so that we wont have to worry about getting
anymore for a while. Ill also buy a speeder to carry all the stuff back.
Obi-Wan laughed softly. Its a good thing Bail gave us plenty of money!
Padme nodded
and watched as Obi-Wan walked back onto the street. She tried to keep herself
calm. Obi knows what hes doing. Hell be okay. How could such a happy
time so quickly turn into this? She hadnt even had the time to enjoy the fact
that Obi-Wan was now her husband. The Dark Side is
always there to steal my joy!
A few minutes later, Padme
turned as the sound of a motor filtered down the alley. Obi-Wan had pulled up
to the back of the alley on her speeder bike. She walked quickly over to him.
Obi-Wan slid off the bike. You ready? Padme nodded, but he could sense her worry and frustration.
He pulled her into a hug. Were going to get through all of this, together.
He gave her a kiss before releasing her.
Padme got
onto the speeder bike. She looked thoughtful. Obi, will you get something for
me?
Anything. What
would you like?
Will you buy me a holocam,
along with plenty of holodisks?
Obi-Wan looked a bit confused. Yes, of course.
Padme smiled
at him. Thank you. Her expression darkened again. Please be careful, Obi.
I will. Remember that I love you, Mrs. Kenobi.
I love you, too. Ill see you at home. Padme quickly took off, not wanting her husband to see her
tears.
Padme was
pacing the small living area of the hut. Its been three hours! Surely
shopping for our supplies couldnt take this long! She had kept herself
busy for a while. She had finished unpacking their things. She had cleaned up
the inside of the hut, which had gotten very dusty while Obi-Wan was gone.
Padme walked
back into their bedroom. She had gotten it as clean and welcoming as she could.
She had shaken out the bedding real well. The sand and dust got into
everything! This was their wedding night. It was supposed to be a happy,
wonderful time. But Padme was sick with worry.
She walked back out into the living area to continue
her pacing when she heard a motor. She ran out the front door to see Obi-Wan
pull up in a speeder that was completely filled with boxes. The car was barely
hovering over the ground it was so heavy.
Obi-Wan hopped out and was
immediately engulfed in hugs and kisses. He smiled as he hugged her back. Im
glad to see you, too!
I was worried sick about you, Obi! My mind kept
conjuring up horrible scenarios about what could have happened. She wiped at
tears as she pulled back to look at her husband.
Im so sorry for worrying you, Padme.
I just kept thinking of more and more things that we would need.
You didnt have any trouble?
No. I was able to convince the merchants that they
knew me. I did see a few wanted holos around town
with my picture. But nobody seemed to recognize me.
Padme
released her breath. Thank the Force for that! She looked at the loaded
speeder. Goodness, Obi! Did you buy out the entire town?
Obi-Wan looked a bit sheepish. Maybe I did get a bit
carried away. I kept seeing things that I thought you would like.
Padme was
amazed at his thoughtfulness. Thank you. She squeezed his hand. Well, I
suppose we should get all of this inside.
They got the speeder unloaded and proceeded to put
away all of the supplies. Padme couldnt believe all
the stuff Obi-Wan had thought to buy. There were all kinds of nice household
appliances, new bedding, plenty of food, materials to enlarge the living area,
clothes for both of them, toiletries, and her holocam.
Hed even thought to buy them some dress clothes, so they could dress up for
each other once and a while.
That gave Padme an idea. Why
dont you go take a shower and wash that color out of your hair?
Obi-Wan snorted. Gladly!
Ill get dinner started. Padme
threw him the dress clothes hed bought himself. And put these on.
Obi-Wan saluted her with a grin. Yes,
maam. He then made a beeline for the fresher before she could
retaliate.
Padme
excitedly got dinner going. Now they could have the wonderful, happy night they
both deserved! She read the directions to her new holocam.
She got it ready and pulled out a holodisk to use.
She looked up from her work when she heard Obi-Wan coming from the fresher.
Padme froze
at the sight. His hair was still wet and back to its normal color. He had on a
midnight blue shirt, open near the top, and black
pants. The blue in the shirt magnified the brilliant blue in his eyes. His
smile completed the package beautifully. Padme
couldnt help but stare, speechless. He was absolutely gorgeous!
When Padme got her voice
back, she spoke with awe in her voice. Obi, you honestly take my breath away.
Obi-Wan again turned pink. Thank you.
Im going to hop in the shower quickly. Will you
watch dinner? At Obi-Wans nod,Padme picked up the dress hed bought her and went
into the fresher. She decided on a sonic shower, as she didnt feel like
messing with wet hair. Padme was thoughtful as she
got dressed. It was such an endearing, attractive quality for a man to not know
how handsome he was. Her first husband had been all too aware. She found that
utterly distasteful now.
Padme
quickly pinned up her hair and looked at herself in the mirror. Obi-Wan had
picked a beautiful, yet simple dress shaded the same midnight blue as his
shirt. It was a long, sleeveless dress made of a sparkling material. It was
just the sort of dress she would have chosen for herself.
Obi-Wan had just finished setting the small table when
Padme emerged from the fresher. Now it was his turn
to gape. His heart thumped as he stared at his wife. My wife! He found
the thought incredible and wonderful! Padme, you
look stunning!
Padme smiled
shyly at Obi-Wan. Thank you. She looked into the kitchen area. Is dinner
ready?
Yes. Ill go get it. Obi-Wan pulled out a chair for
her. Padme sat down, her heart full of love and
anticipation.
Their dinner was filled with deep conversation, joy,
laughing, holding hands, long stares and sheer pleasure in each others
company.
When dinner was over, Padme
went and got her holocam. I want to capture this
night for posterity. She slipped a holodisk into the
camera and pushed a few buttons to set the timer. She set the camera on the
counter. Obi, will you stand there? She pointed to a spot near the table.
When Obi-Wan got into position, she leaned over and
gazed into the viewfinder. She angled the lens up a bit and looked again.
There.
Im not big on having my picture taken, Padme. Do we really have to do this?
Yes. You might as well get used to having your
picture taken, because this is going to be my new hobby!
Great. Obi-Wan didnt exactly sound enthused.
Padme smiled
at him as she poised her finger over the button. Its going to take a whole
succession of pictures, so relax and start smiling. She pushed the button and
ran to Obi-Wans side.
After all the pictures were done, Padme
turned off her holocam and turned to look at Obi-Wan.
She could see all of the emotions she was feeling mirrored in his face. Love. Anticipation. Excitement. Shyness. She walked
slowly over to him. Their eyes were locked. Her heart was pounding. Obi-Wan
reached out and took her hand. Padme gasped as he
swiftly pulled her into a passionate kiss. The galaxy, her fears, her pain it
all melted away. All she knew in this moment was Obi-Wan. He was all that
mattered. So engrossed in his kiss, she was only vaguely aware when he swept
her into his arms and carried her to their bedroom.
Padme woke
up the next morning, head securely on Obi-Wans chest
and a smile still on her face. She lifted up her head to look at him. He was
still asleep. She sighed contentedly as she put her head back on his chest. She
had wanted last night to be wonderful, but it had far exceeded her
expectations. It had been the most perfect, beautiful night of her life.
Obi-Wan stirred beneath her. She propped herself up so
she could gaze at his face. She watched as his eyes slowly opened. Joy filled
her heart as he graced her with his beautiful smile.
Good morning, Wife. Obi-Wan couldnt remember
feeling this content, this happy ever before.
Good morning, Husband. Padme
was amazed at how great if felt to say that to him. She ran her hand over his
chest, pausing over his heart. She loved the feel of his heart beating under
her hand. She stared into his eyes, getting lost in their blue-gray depths. I
love you.
Obi-Wan gently ran his fingers through her hair. I
love you, too. He pulled her into a gentle kiss, which quickly increased in
intensity. In one quick move, he flipped Padme onto
her back and was leaning over her. How about we skip breakfast?
Padme
couldnt help but giggle at his bold smile. In answer, she pulled him down and
captured his mouth with hers.
Padme sat at
the table looking at the holopics from the previous
night. She pushed a wet lock of hair behind her ear as she leaned in. Padme smiled dreamily as she flipped through them one by
one. She felt the need to pinch herself. Could this really be real? Could she
really be this happy? She sighed happily as she studied her handsome husband,
smiling beautifully for the camera.
Hearing Obi-Wan come out of the fresher, Padme turned to grace him with her smile. The pictures
from last night turned out really well. Come look at them.
Obi-Wan leaned over her as she flipped through the
entire set. They did turn out nice. But with you in them, how could they not?
He kissed her and went into the kitchen to finish preparing lunch.
I already know which one I want to display. She
flipped to it as Obi-Wan turned around to see.
You picked my favorite. Obi-Wan smiled at her as he
got their plates.
Padme picked
up the holodisk and set it on a small table in the
living area. She stood back, studying its projection. Obi-Wan is standing
behind her, arms wrapped around her. His chin is resting on top of her head and
hes smiling his high-wattage smile. She has her arms on top of his and is
smiling happily. Yes, this picture says it all.
They sat down at the table to eat their lunch. Obi-Wan
glanced at Padme. Do you know what youd like to do
today?
Padme looked
at Obi-Wan with a serious expression on her face. Yes, I know exactly what I
want to do today.
Padme tried
to find a comfortable position amidst the rocks. She had her holocam in one hand and was trying to balance with the
other. She felt Obi-Wan come up behind her. Here, lean up against me.
Padme did
and sighed. Ah, thats perfect. She put the holocam
up to her eyes, zooming in on the moisture farm.
You do realize that we could be here a while. Padme turned to see Obi-Wans
ironic smile.
Padme kissed
him. Yes, but I should be fine. You make a very comfortable cushion.
Glad to be of service, Obi-Wan said dryly.
Padmes heart
was pounding wildly. She had never thought that this would ever be possible.
She was antsy with excitement.
Obi-Wan snaked his arms around Padmes
waist. Im glad youll at least be able to see him again.
Oh, me too, Obi. I
cant believe its been four whole years
Thisthis wont be even more painful for you, will
it? I mean, being this close, seeing him, but not being able to talk to him or
touch him? Obi-Wan leaned in beside Padme with
concern etched in his eyes.
Padme
squeezed one of his hands. No. I truly see this as a gift. I thought Id never
see Luke again. To be able to see him will help ease the heartache of losing
him.
You really are amazing, Padme.
Obi-Wan kissed her before leaning back against the rock.
Padme
started gazing through her holocams viewfinder
again. The moisture farm looked like a veryuninteresting place to grow up. The
area was completely lifeless. There didnt look to be anything for a child to
do. In other words, it hadnt changed at all since she was here last.
As the hours passed, the two took turns watching
through the viewfinder of the holocam. Padme started her new turn, holding the camera steadily.
Suddenly, she saw a blur of movement. She gasped and leaned forward. A little
towheaded boy had run out the door of the home and was running around outside. Padme started clicking pictures as quickly as her finger
could hit the button. A woman came running out of the house and grabbed the boy
into her arms. She then quickly took him back inside.
It was him, Obi! It was Luke! Padme
pulled the holodisk out of the camera and with
shaking fingers, started reviewing the pictures. Obi-Wan leaned in. The images
started to flicker as Padmes hand continued to
shake. Wordlessly, Obi-Wan took the disk out of her hand and slowly clicked
through the pictures.
Padmes hands
went up to her mouth and tears began to well in her eyes as she saw picture after
picture of her son. Hes beautiful, she whispered.
Yes, he is. When all the pictures were viewed,
Obi-Wan stood up and slipped the holodisk into his
pocket. He put out a hand to help Padme up. She took
it, still shaking with emotion. Obi-Wan pulled her into a hug, stroking her
hair. He finally pulled away from her and put his finger under her chin. Lets
go home.
A few days later, Padme came
out of the kitchen with a tall glass of lemonade. She handed it to her sweaty,
filthy husband. Obi-Wan was working on extending the
living area of the hut. The back wall was gone and he had just finished laying
the foundation of the extended part of the room. Dust covered everything.
Oh, thank you. Obi-Wan drank the entire glass down
quickly and handed it back to her. He immediately started back to work. He was
on his hands and knees measuring and cutting supports for the new walls.
Padme
reemerged from the kitchen and paused. She leaned up against the counter as she
watched Obi-Wan work. She smiled wickedly as her eyes drank him in. His shirt
was off and she could see the play of every muscle in his back as he cut. Her
eyes roved over his strong arms.
Suddenly, Obi-Wan stopped what he was doing and
sighed. Padme, your thoughts are really starting to
distract me. His voice was full of amusement.
Padmes wicked
smile got even larger. Sorry. Obi-Wan continued his work. Padme
continued her surveillance for a few more minutes. She then slowly crept up
behind her husband, getting down on her knees. She wrapped her arms him and
started kissing his neck and his shoulders.
Obi-Wan started to laugh. You are incorrigible!
Padme leaned
over his shoulder and displayed her wicked smile again. I know.
Okay, I know when Im defeated. Obi-Wan got up and
offered her his hand. He pulled her up and started leading her down the hall.
Why, where ever are we going? Padme
asked as innocently as she could.
Obi-Wan stopped in front of the fresher. Im in the
mood for a shower. Obi-Wan displayed his most rakish smile. Care to join me?
Padme awoke
with a start. Obi-Wan was twitching and moaning beside her. A sheen of sweat
glistened on his forehead. He groaned, No! No, please! Tears slid down his
cheeks.
Padme shook
him. Obi! Wake up! Obi-Wan shook his head from side
to side. Obi, please wake up! She shook him hard.
Obi-Wan finally came awake and sat upright, breathing
hard.
Obi, youre okay. You were having a nightmare.
Obi-Wan shook his head. No, it was real! I saw the
destruction of the
Padme pulled
him into her arms. Oh, Baby, no. Im so sorry. Im so sorry. She held him
close, rocking him, stroking his hair.
Obi-Wan looked up at her suddenly, anguish on his
tear-streaked face. Why? Why would he kill the children?
Padmes heart
grew cold as she realized who HE was. He PERSONALLY killed little babies?
She didnt know why that came as such a surprise to her. He had personally
killed many, many others. Tears now slid down her face. I dont know, Baby. I
dont know. But thats how evil works. Theres no explaining it, no
understanding it. She continued holding him until he calmed down.
Obi-Wan threw himself onto his back when the tears
finally stopped. I remember a lot of those kids, even the babies. Padme lay down beside him, propping herself up so she could
look at him. She put her other hand on his chest. He intertwined his fingers
with hers. I enjoyed going into the creche and
visiting the little babies. Those little ones were always such a wonder to me.
They were so tiny, so innocent. Obi-Wan sighed heavily. Now theyre all
gone.
Padmes heart
ached, not just for those little ones lost, but for her husband. You will see
them again. All of them.
Obi-Wan looked at her. I know. I know. I wish that
knowledge helped to ease the sense of waste.
Padme moved
her hand to his face. She pushed his sweat-soaked hair off his forehead. She
moved her hand down to stroke his cheek. She then nestled down, head resting on
his shoulder. Oh, what she wouldnt give to ease her husbands pain!
Obi-Wan spoke softly. I dont know what Id do
without you, Padme.
Sidious paced
his office. There was still no sign of Obi-Wan anywhere! Its been a year!
Where can he be? Not one bounty hunter had been able to find even a clue as to
Obi-Wans whereabouts. When Obi-Wan had first
escaped, Sidious had been so sure that he would be
found quickly. Now, he wasdiscouraged.
The search for Obi-Wan was consuming him. He thought
of little else anymore. Even the reports coming in from Vader about Outer Rim
planets coming under their control were only given a cursory glance. Since when
is more power and more control not enough for a Sith? Sidious plopped
himself into his chair. Since Obi-Wan.
Sidious had
gone over the memories hed taken from Obi-Wans mind
time and time again. He knew every action, every thought, every
nuance by heart. It almost felt like hed been with Obi-Wan when each memory
was made. He felt a huge amount of pride in Obi-Wans
accomplishments. Strange really, considering that those accomplishments were
diametrically opposed to his own. Even now, knowing that Obi-Wan had eluded him
for an entire year he was impressed.
Obi-Wans accomplishments
and qualities were catalogued in Sidious mind. In
opposition, was the catalogue of Vaders failings and weaknesses.
He knew he wasnt exactly being fair to Vader, but he didnt care. I am a Sith, after all. Although I
havent been acting like one where Obi-Wan is
concerned, I still am where everything else is concerned. He had used Vader for
his own ends and now he was ready to be rid of him. Of course, he couldnt be
rid of him until he had a replacement!
Sidious also
had no illusions about Vaders loyalty. He knew that Vader was probably
searching for Obi-Wan, despite his warning. After Padmes
little parting gift, he had no doubt that Vader wanted Obi-Wan dead. That made
it even more imperative that he find Obi-Wan first. I wont let Vader get to
him first!
Sidious stood
and gazed out his window. Maybe hed been going about his search for Obi-Wan
the wrong way. Thanks to his mind probes, he knew Obi-Wan very well. He knew
his thought processes, how he operates. If he could just put himself in Obi-Wans shoes, maybe he could make an educated guess as to
where he was hiding. Now, if I were Obi-Wan, where would I choose to hide?
Darth Vader was looking at another
readout from one of his probe droids. Still no sign of
Obi-Wan anywhere. Vader threw the datapad
across the room. Ive been out here for almost a year and nothing! He and his
master were in a race (unbeknownst to said master) over who could find Obi-Wan
first.
Overseeing this tedious mission was starting to get to
him. Having to do a backhanded search for Obi-Wan was also starting to get to
him. But he wasnt ready to openly defy his masteryet. Obi-Wan probably isnt even out here in the Outer Rim, and Im wasting my
time!
Vader flopped down into his chair. He was still trying
to figure out how his master could possibly prefer Obi-Wan over him. Vader kept
a running catalogue of all of Obi-Wans weaknesses
and failings. When compared to MY accomplishments and strengths, the choice
should be obvious!
Vader drummed his fingers on the arm of his chair. He
felt like a caged animal. He was stuck on this stupid mission when he should be
on a no-holds-barred search for Obi-Wan. But, he would try to be patient. Obi-Wans time would come
Padme
brought the small cake into the living area. Can you believe weve been
married a year?
Obi-Wan looked up at her from his perch on the sofa.
No, I cant. It seems like it was yesterday. And yet, at the same time, it
feels like weve been together for years.
Padme sat
down next to him, an ironic smile on her face. Thats exactly how it feels to
me. She took his hand in hers and gave him a kiss. Happy
anniversary.
Happy anniversary.
Obi-Wan smiled warmly at Padme as she snuggled up
beside him. He looked at the many holopics on display
around the room. There were a few pictures of Luke, a few of Padme that hed taken, a few of him and Padme
together, one even of a beautiful sunset; but most noticeable of all, were the
many pictures of him. There was a picture of him meditating outside, one of him
working on a kata with his lightsaber,
one of him lost in thought, one of him reading many candid shots. She liked
to sneak attack. Obi-Wan shook his head. That wasnt even all of them! There
were more in their bedroom and throughout the hut.
What? Padme turned to look
him in the eye.
Obi-Wan gestured around the room. Dont you think you
have enough pictures of me on display? My face is everywhere!
I know. Youre my favorite decoration.
I think we should have more pictures of you on
display.
Padme gave
him a big smile. Its my camera. And thus, I get to choose the subject!
Ah, so thats what I am to you a subject for your
camera.
Padme
waggled her eyebrows. Among other things. She leaned
in for a kiss, then settled against him again.
Well, Obi-Wan said expectantly.
Well, what?
Are we actually going to eat the cake, or just sit
here and look at it?
Oh! Padme laughed as she
went back into the kitchen for plates, forks and a knife. That was the general
idea.
As Padme got the dishes,
Obi-Wan went and got a box hed hidden under their bed. He returned to the sofa
and handed her the box. I saw this the last time I was in town. I knew I had
to get it for you.
Padme
excitedly opened the box. Her hand went to her mouth as she saw what was
inside. Oh, Obi She pulled the small painting out of the box to get a better
look at it. It was Theed. It beautifully captured Naboos capital city and its surrounding waterfalls.
I highly doubt Ill ever be able to take you home
again. But when I saw this painting, I thought that I could at least bring a
bit of home to you.
Unshed tears glistened in Padmes
eyes. This is the most wonderful present Ive ever received. She threw
herself into her husbands arms. Thank you. I shall treasure it.
Wiping her eyes, she pulled away from Obi-Wan.
Considering you wont let me go into town, she said with a small smile, I
couldnt exactly buy you a gift. However, Padme went and got a durasheet
from a drawer in the kitchen. I do have something for you. She handed him the
durasheet. Itsits nothing major, but its from
the heart.
Obi-Wan sat back and started to read.
I once thought I knew what love was. But I had only a
cursory glimpse, a fleeting child-like look. I was caught in a rivers tide,
swept downstream. I felt the rush of wind in my face and reveled in my daring.
My eyes closed in rapture and I didnt see the rocks. Over my giggling, I
didnt hear the roar of the upcoming rapids...
Battered and worn, I crawled onto the riverbank. Is
this love? A fleeting pleasure that ends in despair and pain?
Unpredictable and dangerous?
Then came you. Im floating
on calm water. Im secure. Im lulled to sleep by the soft lapping of the
surface. The sun is on my face and I take joy in its warmth. I swim in its
depths, exploring its beauty. Its unchanging, yet never boring. Its a source
of refreshment, life, peace and joy. Its wonderful here, and I know I never
want to leave.
Now I understand. Love isnt a river. Love is a
beautiful lake. Like my favorite lake on Naboo. YOU
taught me what love truly is.
Obi-Wan just sat there a moment, blinking. He looked
over at Padme, who was wringing her hands nervously.
Hon, its beautiful! He heard her let out a sigh of relief. ItsThank you
so much. This is the best present IVE ever received. He cupped her cheek with
his hand and kissed her gently.
Padme pulled
him into a hug, not wanting to let go. But then she glanced down at the table
and chuckled. That cake is going to dry out before we get around to eating
it!
Padme
listened to Obi-Wans steady breathing. She wasnt
able to get to sleep, but she was glad that he seemed to be sleeping
peacefully. He was still hit with visions and horrible nightmares once in
while. At least they were coming less frequently now. She knew that it wasnt
just grief and trauma that brought those visions and nightmares, it was also
guilt. She wished that he would just let go of the guilt!
Thinking back on the past year, Padme
couldnt help but compare it to the first year of her marriage to Anakin. Of
course, the circumstances were vastly different. But she wasnt really
comparing the circumstances or even the men (though they were completely
different). She was comparing how she felt after that first year of marriage to
Anakin versus how she was feeling now. The difference was stark.
After one year with Anakin, she had already started
getting some warning signals about his behavior. But she had ignored them or
pushed them aside. His immaturity and possessiveness would ease with time, or
so she had thought. The love she had felt for Anakin had been intermixed with
worry, uncertainty and frustration. It had gone downhill from there.
Now here she and Obi-Wan were, hiding for their lives
in a desert wasteland, and shed never been happier. As far as their
relationship was concerned, there was no worry, no uncertainty and no
frustration. All she felt was security, faith and peace in his love. The wonder
of this love was what prompted her to write that poem. It truly did speak all
that was in her heart.
As Padme studied her
husbands profile in the moonlight, her heart was gripped with the fear of
losing him. She knew now that she wouldnt have to worry about him dying before
her, but what if the Emperor found him again? What if he took Obi-Wan away from
her for good? Padme tried to shake off her fear. Yoda
seemed certain that Obi-Wans future was here.The Force was wanting Obi-Wan to train Luke when the
time came. She would have to try and be secure in the will of the Force. I will
not let fear rob me of my joy!
Darth Vader stood in the shuttle bay of his Star
Destroyer, watching the Emperors shuttle land. He pushed down his irritation
beneath his shields. This would just be another delay in finding Obi-Wan.
Sidious walked
down the ramp of his shuttle. I came to see how things were going out here
firsthand. Progress report?
Vader fell into step with his master. Six Outer Rim
planets are now firmly under our control. Two more are close. We are in the
process of setting up garrisons there.
Good. I expect all of the Outer Rim planets to be
under our control within another year.
Yes, Master.
I would like an office for my temporary
headquarters.
Vader tried to hide his alarm. How long is he planning
to stay? Of course, Master. I will have your office readied quickly.
The Emperor walked to the bridge with a smile. He had
sensed Vaders alarm at the thought of him staying long-term. He stopped in
front of a large window and stared out. I know youre out there, Obi-Wan. Sidious stretched out his senses, searching for even a
glimmer of Obi-Wans bright Force signature.
Sidious
stretched even further. He was completely focused. He felt a little something
Could it be? His focus tightened. He felt the whisper of a familiar, beautiful
presence. He focused even tighter
Your office is ready, Master. Vader had come up
beside him.
The Emperors focus was shattered. The whisper was
gone. A fire lit up inside the Emperors eyes as he turned to Vader. Thank
you, Lord Vader.
Vader led his master down the hallway in confusion.
What did I do now? Hed seen the blazing anger in his masters eyes. It almost
seemed as if hed interrupted something. A search, perhaps?
Was his master out here searching for Obi-Wan? Did he have some reason to
believe that Obi-Wan was out here in the Outer Rim?
A glimmer of hope surged through Vader as he stopped
in front of a door. Here you are, Master.
Sidious turned
and looked at Vader as though he were an insect. I do not wish to be
disturbed.
Of course not, Master. Vader walked away cursing
under his breath. His master had never looked at Obi-Wan that way! If Obi-Wan is here in the Outer Rim, I MUST find him first!
Padme sat in
the doorway of the hut, watching Obi-Wan. He was a little ways away, meditating
in the dawns growing light. She had enjoyed watching the sunrise and she was
now enjoying watching her husband. She noticed that he suddenly seemed to lose
his concentration. His hand flew up to his head.
Padme got up
and ran over to her husband. What is it, Obi? She knelt down next to him and
took his hand in hers.
Obi-Wan looked at her, alarm clouding his eyes. I
felt him, Padme. I felt the Emperor.
Padmes heart
sunk into her stomach. But how?
Our mutual mind probes must have connected us in some
way. Hes near. Hes searching for me.
Padme felt
the cold fingers of fear grab at her heart. If youve sensed him, then that
must mean that hes sensed you!
Maybe not, Hon. I believe that this is a warning from
the Force. I dont think Sidious has sensed me as
fully as Ive sensed him. Im going to have to shield myself as heavily as I
can.
But for how long? Wont that take a lot out of you?
Ill do what I must for as long as I must. I wont
let him find us. I wont let him find you.
Padme threw
herself in Obi-Wans arms. It isnt me hes after,
its you! Hes never going to stop looking for you especially if he feels
hes close!
I wont let him find me. If I can shield myself
enough, he wont be able to pinpoint my location.
Padme pulled
back to look her husband in the eyes. Thats a big if, Babe. I dont care
what happens to me anymore. I really dont. All I care about you. I cant bear
the thought of you being in Sidious clutches again!
Obi-Wan pulled his wife back into his arms. YOU may
not care what happens to you, but I do! Ill die before I allow anyone else to
hurt you.
No! Padme said it with
such vehemence that Obi-Wan pulled away from her in surprise. Determination
shone in her eyes. You will NOT die for me, Obi.
Obi-Wan decided that it was best to change the
subject. Come on, Hon, lets get inside. Even as they walked, he worked to
build up his shielding. It would take a lot of energy to keep up the kind of
shielding necessary to keep Sidious from sensing him.
But he would do it. He HAD to do it!
Sidious sat
down in his chair and turned to face the window. I know that was you, Obi-Wan.
He stretched out again with his senses. The contact before had been so
fleeting, he hadnt been able to determine where it was located. He stretched
out further, focusing intently. Nothing. He stretched
out even further. Nothing.
Sidious
slammed his fist down on the arm of his chair in frustration. If that worthless
excuse for an apprentice hadnt interrupted me, I could have pinpointed Obi-Wans location! And now, it was as if Obi-Wan had been
alerted to Sidious presence and was shielding
himself. Could Obi-Wan have sensed me? That would mean that they had a
connection in the Force.
Sidious
concentrated again on his search. He was more positive than ever that Obi-Wan was meant to be his apprentice. No, more than that, he was
meant to be his son.
Obi-Wan lay awake in their bed. He was exhausted, but
didnt want to sleep. It had been two weeks since hed first sensed Sidious. Keeping up his heavy mental shields was taking its
toll. He was now scared that because of his mental fatigue, he would
accidentally let his mental shields slip while sleeping.
Obi-Wan looked down at his sleeping wife. He knew what
he needed to do, he just had to steel himself to
actually do it. Padme had been right. Sidious would never stop searching for him as long as he
knew he was close. Eventually, Obi-Wans mental
shields would crack. He couldnt keep them up indefinitely. He HAD to protect Padme and Luke. He would NOT endanger them by staying here.
He had to leave Tatooine.
Obi-Wan carefully crawled out of bed. He pulled out a
small pre-packed suitcase from under the bed. He quickly put on his clothes and
his boots and clipped his lightsaber onto his belt.
He placed the note hed written Padme on his pillow.
He gazed down at her, quickly trying to memorize her beautiful face. He then
turned and walked out of the hut, unshed tears glistening in his eyes.
As Obi-Wan made his way to the cruiser hidden in the
cave, he prayed that someday Padme would be able to
forgive him for leaving her this way.
The next morning, Padme
blinked her eyes against the sunlight streaming into the bedroom. She stretched
and turned to give her husband a good morning kiss. She shot upright as she
found not her husband, but a note. She grabbed the note with a shaking hand,
dread flowing through her.
My Dearest Padme,
By the time you read this, I will be a safe distance
from Tatooine. I can feel my strength weakening. I
wont be able to keep up these mental shields for much longer. You were right,
my love, Sidious will not stop searching for me. I
will not put you or Luke in danger by remaining any longer. You and he are my
first consideration. I will draw Sidious away from Tatooine. Please dont try and come after me. Stay there
and stay safe! I truly hope that you will be able to forgive me for leaving
you. Please know that I love you more than I could ever express. You mean more
to me than my life. Knowing that you are safe will be enough for me.
Love Always,
Your Husband
Tears flowed down Padmes
face. Her worst nightmare had come true. She covered her face with her hands
and cried. She laid her head on her husbands pillow, squeezing it tightly.
When the tears finally stopped, Padme sat up numbly.
A picture of Vader popped into her head. Her breath hissed out between her
teeth. HE was the cause of ALL of this! HE was the cause of all the horrors in
the galaxy. HE was the cause of all her pain. She hated him like shed never
hated anyone before.
Padme got
out of bed. Determination was etched in her movements. She was going to get her
husband back! She would not allow the Dark Side to rob her and Obi-Wan of
anymore happiness. She quickly put on her clothes and her blond wig. She
grabbed what was left of the money Bail had given them. She also took the
blaster Obi-Wan had given her. She took one last look around her home. Her eyes
fell on the picture of her and Obi-Wan on their wedding night. New tears shone
in her eyes as she strode out towards her speeder bike. You are NOT leaving me,
Obi-Wan Kenobi!
Padme didnt
really know what she would do, but she did know whos
counsel she would seek
Obi-Wan settled himself into his small motel room on Tantiv V. He sat down on the bed and prepared for what he
was about to do. He shivered at the memory of his imprisonment by Sidious a year and a half ago. Here he was about to
voluntarily enter into it again. He took a deep breath as he allowed a crack to
form in his mental shielding. He also made it appear like he was struggling to
seal the crack. He hoped that the Emperor wouldnt take long to track him down.
The sooner the attention was focused on him here, the safer Padme
and Luke would be.
Sidious stood
up like a shot. He gripped the wall beside the window as he focused towards the
light he sensed. Yes, there was a crack in Obi-Wans
shielding! He stretched out further. He could sense Obi-Wan working to seal the
crack. Oh, no you dont, Obi-Wan. He honed in closer to the light shining
through the crack. Sidious turned and grabbed his
chart of the system. He closed his eyes as he continued to reach out for Obi-Wans presence. His finger roamed the chart, moving a
little further out, a little bit moreThere! Tantiv
V!
Sidious hit
the com button. Bridge. This is the Emperor. Set a
course for Tantiv V, maximum speed.
Obi-Wan lay back on the bed. He could sense that the
Emperor had detected the crack in his shielding. It wouldnt be long now. He
allowed another small crack to form in his shielding. Once the Emperor arrived
at Tantiv V, he would be able to hone in on Obi-Wans exact location.
Sidious walked
over to the ramp of his shuttle. A team of Stormtroopers
was awaiting him. Once were on our way to the surface, I will be able to
detect Kenobis exact location. You will NOT hurt him, is that understood?
The lead trooper nodded his head. Understood,
Sir.
Very well. Let us
go. The Emperor quickly walked up the ramp into the shuttle. His heart was
pounding in his chest. He was surprised at the excitement he felt. Soon,
Obi-Wan would be back by his side!
Obi-Wan was sitting on the
edge of his bed. He could sense the Emperor was very near. He could also sense
the mans excitement. Hes excited to have me back. Obi-Wan still couldnt
believe that this was the Sith Master who was feeling
these things. He readied himself, calming his breathing. His lightsaber was on the nightstand beside the bed.
Obi-Wan heard the sound of footsteps heading towards
his room. He calmly watched as his door was disintegrated and Stormtroopers ran in, aiming their blaster rifles at him.
He sat there, almost looking nonchalant, as the Emperor walked into the room.
The Emperor smiled. So we meet again, Obi-Wan. The
man before him looked so much younger, almost like the brand new Jedi Knight
hed greeted back on Naboo about twenty years before.
His hair was shorter than when he'd last seen him and his beard was gone. But
that same pure strength shone from his blue-gray eyes.
Obi-Wan stood up, never breaking eye contact with the
Emperor. So we do.
I know I'm evil for leaving you hanging! Ha, ha! But
fear not, a quick update is at hand!
The Emperor pulled a small box from his cloak pocket.
Im afraid I wont be allowing you to access the Force this time. He pulled a
hypospray out of the box.
Obi-Wan offered Sidious his
arm without hesitation. Sidious pressed the hypo
against Obi-Wans skin. The fact that Obi-Wan maintained
eye contact the entire time unnerved the Emperor. He felt like those eyes were
dissecting him. Sidious motioned to the troopers, who
placed Obi-Wan in binders and surrounded him. Then they moved off towards the
shuttle. The Emperor grabbed Obi-Wans lightsaber and his small suitcase, then followed quickly
behind the troopers.
Once onboard the shuttle, Sidious
joined a still-shackled Obi-Wan in the small holding cell. Obi-Wan sat on the
small cot, still holding Sidious gaze. Sidious returned the scrutiny, openly studying the younger
man. You gave in too easily.
Obi-Wan shrugged his shoulders. I knew you were in
the area. I kept up my shields as long as I could. But my shields started to
crack. I knew that you would detect the crack. I knew it was only a matter of
time before you found me again. What was the point of fighting? Obi-Wan laid down on the cot.
That doesnt sound like you. Sidious
wondered what Obi-Wan was up to.
Obi-Wan turned his head towards Sidious.
A small smile played at his lips. You know me so well, do you?
Sidious held
his gaze. Yes, I do.
How did I manage to elude you for a year and a half
then?
Because I didnt realize how well I knew you until
recently. Once I did, I just put myself in your shoes and asked where I would hide
if I were you.
Obi-Wans eyes narrowed.
And you just naturally assumed Tantiv V?
No, but I did naturally assume the Outer Rim.
Obi-Wan snorted. A good guess.
Sidious smiled
at Obi-Wan. No, young one, I knew.
Sidious had
Obi-Wan safely ensconced onboard his own Star Destroyer, which he had called
back as soon as hed sensed the crack in Obi-Wans
shields. He wasnt about to give Vader a chance to do any harm to Obi-Wan. Without
so much as a word to Vader, Sidious headed back to Coruscant.
Sidious strode
into Obi-Wans guarded room. I dont think you need
those anymore. With a motion, Obi-Wans binders came
undone and fell to the floor. Obi-Wan massaged his wrists as he watched the
Emperor.
Sidious
stopped in front of Obi-Wan. You sensed me when I first started searching for
you.
Yes.
Dont you find that a bit odd?
Obi-Wan crossed his arms over his chest. I just
assumed our mutual mind probes created some kind of flukey
connection.
Why would it do that?
An irritated look flitted across Obi-Wans face. I dont know. I cant explain it.
Ah, so you admit that theres a connection between
us, then?
Obi-Wan frowned. Begrudgingly,
yes.
Sidious
cackled. My how hed missed that wit! Do you not sense it, Obi-Wan?
Obi-Wans eyebrow came up.
Considering youre blocking my use of the Force, I cant sense anything.
What I mean is, do you not
feel that our connection through the Force is an indicator of a greater truth?
Obi-Wan could tell where this was going. No, I
dont.
Well, I do. I think that deep down you do as well and
that youre just denying the truth.
Oh, thats right. You know me so well.
Sidious
smiled. Better than you think.
Obi-Wan did not like the absolute certainty in the
Emperors voice.
Why dont you get some sleep, Obi-Wan.
You look like you could use it. Sidious turned and
walked out of the room.
Darth Vader paced the bridge of his Star Destroyer. He
had just found out that the Emperor had left on his shuttle with a team of Stormtroopers hours before. He had the feeling that his
master was going after Obi-Wan. The shuttle hadnt returned yet. He turned to a
bridge officer. Search for other Imperial vessels in the area.
Lord Vader, the Emperors Star Destroyer was nearby.
But it went into hyperspace a while ago. He studied his readout further. They
look to be heading back to Coruscant.
Vader turned and walked towards his office. He has
Obi-Wan! Thats the only reason hed leave so quickly AND without telling me.
Vader was now in a quandary. Should he openly defy his master and go to Coruscant? But if he showed up on Coruscant,
his master would know exactly why he was there. He wouldnt let me get near
Obi-Wan. He had been so close to finding Obi-Wan himself! But he knew that as
long as Obi-Wan was in his masters company, there
would be nothing Vader could do to him. He was stuck
The Emperor walked quickly to Obi-Wans
room. He knew something was wrong. He didnt know how, as Obi-Wan was cut off
from the Force, but he knew nonetheless. He walked into the darkened room. He
heard Obi-Wan moaning. Sidious turned up the lights a
bit.
Obi-Wan was thrashing around.
His forehead and his bare chest were sweaty. No, please! Please, not the
children! Tears trickled down his cheeks.
Sidious pulled
up a chair next to the cot. He put a hand on Obi-Wans
shoulder and shook him gently. Obi-Wan. Obi-Wan
continued to thrash about. Obi-Wan! He shook him
harder.
Obi-Wan came awake with a start. It took him a moment
to calm down. He turned and saw the Emperor. Why did you order Vader to kill
the children?
Sidious knew
that this could be his moment to start moving Obi-Wan towards the Dark Side. He
could amplify the nightmare and the guiltBut one look at Obi-Wans glistening, jewel-like eyes and tear-streaked cheeks
and he knew he couldnt do it. He also knew that he didnt want to answer Obi-Wans question directly.
You are not to blame for what happened, Obi-Wan.
Vader followed my orders of his own free will.
But
Shh. The Emperor put his
hand on Obi-Wans forehead. Sleep, Obi-Wan
The sleep suggestion started to work right away.
Dont wantsleepnightmares With that, Obi-Wan was
asleep.
Sidious wiped
the tears off of Obi-Wans face. I will keep away
the nightmares, young one. He sat back and sighed heavily. He stared at
Obi-Wan in contemplation. I am certainly not acting like a Sith! If he was unwilling (or even unable) to hurt
Obi-Wan, how was he going to turn him to the Dark Side? Suddenly the galaxy
seemed a whole lot more complicated. He made himself comfortable for his long
vigil.
Time to get up, Obi-Wan. Obi-Wan blinked, but
immediately closed his eyes at the assault of light. Come eat some breakfast.
He slowly climbed off the cot, squinting as he looked for his tunic. He pulled
in on without bothering to close it. He made his way over to the small table
where the Emperor was standing.
Sidious
couldnt help but smile at Obi-Wan. His clothes were rumpled, the tunic was
hanging open, his hair was askew and he was rubbing his eyes, trying to get
them used to the light. Sidious could imagine that
Obi-Wan had looked just like this as a boy in the mornings.
The Emperor sat down as Obi-Wan took his seat. He
noticed that Obi-Wans eyes were now fully open and
studying him.
You could have used my nightmare against me, why
didnt you? Obi-Wans eyes contained an innocence
that reminded Sidious again of a boy.
Sidious found
that he couldnt hold Obi-Wans gaze. He looked over
to a spot on the wall. A frustrated look flitted across his face. I dont
know. He slowly moved his eyes back over to Obi-Wan, who was
still studying him.
Thank you for helping me to sleep.
Sidious looked
a bit surprised. Youre welcome. He paused, wondering if he should ask his
next question. Do you have nightmares often?
Obi-Wan sighed. Yes. This particular nightmare is the
most frequent. It started off as a vision. The vision was so real, like I had
been there during the destruction of the
Sidious was
very aware of howweird this moment was. It was nice, but weird. Here were a Sith and a Jedi having an intimate
conversation over breakfast. It was ironic, to say the least.
A wicked-looking smile crept onto Obi-Wans face. Does Vader know Im here?
No, I left him without saying where I was going or
who I was going after. Though, I doubt it will take him long to figure it out.
Sidious cackled. Hell be livid that I found you
first.
Oh, yes. Im sure he was imagining many horrible
deaths that he could subject me to.
He can imagine all he wants, but I wont be letting
him anywhere near you again.
Padme flew
into the thick atmosphere of Dagobah. She scanned for
the swath of land Obi-Wan had landed on the last time. She knew that she wasnt
near the skilled pilot that Obi-Wan was. She hoped
that shed be able to land this thing on solid ground.
She managed to land her ship on the small piece of
land, though it was tottering a bit on the edge. She prayed that it would hold
up as she made her way through the swamp. As Yodas hut got closer, she saw
that he was waiting in his doorway.
Unexpected this visit is, Padme.
Come in, talk we will.
Padme told
him everything that had happened. Yoda, Im not going to just sit back and let
Obi-Wan sacrifice himself like this.
A disturbing turn of events this is. Unexpected and
unusual this connection between Obi-Wan and Sidious
is.
Padme looked
at Yoda pleadingly. What should I do? Just dont tell me to go back to Tatooine and wait. I have to do something. I wont leave
Obi in Sidious grasp.
Tell you to go back I will not. Useless I know it
would be. Contact Bail Organa you should.
Padme was
hoping to avoid that. Bail had put himself in enormous danger to help them once
before. But she also knew that he was probably Obi-Wans
best chance. Okay.
Danger I do not sense for Obi-Wan. Strange that is.
Yoda closed his eyes in concentration. Protective Sidious
is of Obi-Wan. Protecting him from Vader he is. Yoda shook his head. Very
unexpected behavior for a Sith
this is.
Padme nodded
her head. I know. But thats just it. Hes never going to want to let Obi-Wan
out of his sight again.
Yes. Great deal of planning this will take. Easy to
rescue Obi-Wan, it will not be this time. But rescue him you must. A mission he
has yet to complete. The Force will be with you. Yoda eyed Padme
closely. Angry with Obi-Wan, you are not?
Padme smiled
sadly. No. I know why he did it. He did it to protect Luke and I. Everything
he does is always to protect the children and I. I just wish hed think of
himself for a change. Its like he feels he has a penance to pay where were
concerned.
Yoda placed a clawed hand on her arm. No, that is not
it. Yes, guilt he feels and will always feel. But guilt it is not that drives
him to protect you. Love it is.
Padme smiled
at Yoda. Thank you, Master Yoda. I WILL get him back.
Know this I do. Yoda walked with her to the edge of
the swamp. Say hello to Bailand to Obi-Wan for me.
I will. Padme quickly made
her way back to her ship. She entered the coordinates for Alderaan
and took off into the mist.
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A couple of days later, Obi-Wan looked around his new
apartment. It was actually quite luxurious. The forcefield
surrounding the place and the armed guards stationed outside his front door
were the only indication that this was actually a prison. He opened the door to
the balcony. The forcefield was far enough out that
he could lean over the railing and watch the Coruscant traffic.
Obi-Wan heaved a heavy sigh. It hurt being back on
this planet. This planet held so many memories about things long gone. His heart
ached as he thought of the beloved
Resting his head in his hands, Obi-Wan watched the
steady stream of movement around him. He fervently wished that he could release
his emotions into the Force. He felt a heaviness that was oppressive. Images of
times past and friends gone flashed unbidden through his mind.
Sidious
entered Obi-Wans apartment and looked around. He
didnt see Obi-Wan, but he had a feeling where he might be. He made his way
through the large living area and came up to the door to the balcony. Obi-Wan was hunched over the railing. An air of melancholy hung over
him like a shroud. He even looked as though he were physically weighted down.
Sidious opened
the door and stepped out onto the balcony. Obi-Wan turned his head at the
sound. Sidious came to stand beside him. Do you like
your apartment?
Its a bit more luxurious than Im used to, but yes,
thank you. Obi-Wan turned his head back to the Coruscant skyline. He tried to focus on his
breathing, not the memories still assaulting his mind. He massaged his temples,
trying to get the pain to ease up.
Are you feeling alright?
Im fine. Its just a headache. Obi-Wan just wanted
to be left alone. All of the memories and the pain were starting to make him
irritable.
Sidious caught
the edge in Obi-Wans voice. He put his hand up to
Obi-Wans temple. Obi-Wan flinched and backed away a
bit. But Sidious tried again. He put his hand up and
this time Obi-Wan stood still, eyes locked on his.
As Sidious touched his
temple, Obi-Wan could feel the pain get whisked away. The memories instantly
stopped and a feeling of peace flowed through him. He relaxed against the
railing, releasing his breath as Sidious pulled his
hand away. Thank you.
Youre welcome. Sidious
noticed the confusion in Obi-Wans eyes. That
confusion was probably mirrored in his own. He cleared his throat. Well, I
have some things that I need to attend to. Make yourself comfortable. The
cupboards are stocked. You have plenty of clothes, a holovid,
a computer terminal, datapads
all the comforts of home. Ill be back to check in on you this evening. Sidious quickly went back into the apartment and left.
Sidious was
quite uncomfortable with the emotions that always seemed to take hold of him
where Obi-Wan was concerned. Being around him again
had increased those alien emotions ten-fold. It irritated him that he was
acting so very un-Sith-like. Why couldnt he go back
to the days when all his emotions ran predictably dark? Those wonderful days
before I got these blasted paternal yearnings!
Obi-Wan sat down in one of the chairs on the balcony.
He was completely baffled. This Sith Master, who had
done horrible, heinous things without any remorse, was showing himtenderness.
On top of that, Sidious had bypassed a perfect
opportunity to try and push him towards the Dark Side. Instead of using the
nightmare against him, Sidious had actually protected
him from it! It made NO sense!
Obi-Wan decided to go take a tour of his new home. It
was huge and lavishly furnished not his usual style at all. He checked out
the kitchen. It was indeed well stocked with all of his favorite foods and
beverages. How did heOh, yeah, the mind probe. The bedroom had a huge,
comfortable bed. The walk-in closet was full of all kinds of clothes. He picked
out an outfit and headed for the fresher. It was also large and well stocked.
Opting for a hot water shower, Obi-Wan took his time,
allowing the spray to relax and massage his muscles. Fastening a towel around
his waist, he got out and went over to the cabinet. He searched the drawers and
then found a shaver. Padme had preferred him
clean-shaven. Even though she wasnt here, he still wanted to do that for her.
Obi-Wan combed his short hair and put on his clothes. The beige pants and white
shirt fit perfectly.
Bare feet sinking into the plush carpet, Obi-Wan
padded back to the large living area. His eyes scanned the room, taking in
every detail. He continued on into the office. On the desk was
a computer terminal and a few datapads. He walked
throughout the large apartment, taking a complete inventory. It did pretty much
have everything one could need, but there was no communications equipment. Why
would I think there would be?
There was only one heavily guarded entrance into the
apartment and the outside was completely enclosed by a forcefield.
Considering he was without his lightsaber and was
blocked from using the Force, the odds of being able to escape were not good.
He would have to resign himself to being trapped here for now.
Sidious
entered the apartment that evening to find Obi-Wan lying on the sofa reading a datapad. You certainly appear to have made yourself
comfortable. Obi-Wan looked up, but made no reply. Sidious
sat down in a nearby chair. What are you reading?
101 Ways to Escape a Locked-Down Apartment
Genuine laughter escaped from Sidious.
I dont seem to remember including that in your library.
An oversight, perhaps.
Obi-Wan tossed the datapad onto the coffee table as
he got up. I was just about to start dinner. Are you hungry?
Sidious
realized that he hadnt eaten all day. Yes, actually, I am.
Then you can make yourself useful and chop up this
onion. Obi-Wan placed a cutting board, knife and onion on the opposite
counter. He turned back to continue preparing the meat and vegetables.
Sidious got up
and slowly walked to the kitchen. He hadnt prepared his own food in years. He
eyed the onion dubiously. He picked up the knife and glanced at Obi-Wan, who was still busying himself on the other side of the large
kitchen. With a sigh, Sidious resigned himself to his
fate and started chopping. It was a particularly potent onion. He had to
continually wipe his watering eyes as he worked.
Obi-Wan glanced over his shoulder periodically. He
couldnt help but chuckle at the sight of the Sith
Master mopping at his eyes. Sidious paused from his
chopping and looked at Obi-Wan. You did this deliberately, didnt you?
Yes, I did. Im glad Im not the only one who cant
cut up an onion without crying.
Sidious looked
indignant. I am NOT crying!
Obi-Wan looked at him with a serious face. Are you
almost done? Im ready for the onion.
Sidious went
back to cutting up the onion, grumbling under his breath. There. He put down
the knife and walked back into the living area, surreptitiously wiping at the
streams flowing down his cheeks.
Now sitting at the dining table with their meal,
Obi-Wan eyed Sidious. Is there a reason you wear
your cloak and hood, even in my presence? I mean, I know this whole mystery and
danger thing youve got going works with others, but I know who you are. Why
hide?
Sidious sat up
straighter. I am not hiding. Actually, that wasnt really true. He did like
to have an air of mystery and danger, as Obi-Wan said. But he also liked being
enclosed in the dark cloak. Maybe he WAS hiding. Leave it to Obi-Wan to see
right through him.
Sidious got up
from the table and went into the living area. He took off his cloak and laid it
over his chair. Now he felt completely exposed. He didnt like this feeling,
especially with Obi-Wans keen eyes dissecting his
every move.
Obi-Wan watched the Emperor as he came back to the
table. He looked much like he had when he was Chancellor Palpatine.
The horrible yellow-eyes and wrinkled face look was almost completely gone.
Irritation entered Obi-Wans eyes as the Emperor sat
back down. You can reveal your true nature to me. This Palpatine
persona is no longer you.
Sidious
quietly held his gaze for a moment. On the contrary, I find that when Im with
you, I am more Palpatine than Sidious.
The irritation in Obi-Wans
eyes turned to confusion. Is that what was going on? Had he somehow managed to
touch the human in Sidious rather than the Sith?
Padme had
managed to contact Bail through the Rebellion grapevine. She was now waiting at
the agreed upon coordinates. She scanned the area again for any vessels, but
found nothing. She was thankful that the cloaked ship Bail used couldnt be
scanned. She studied the area, finally seeing a crack of light appear in space.
She started flying towards what was now an open bay door.
After parking her ship and shutting down the engines, Padme got out to see Bail walking
towards her. She gave him a hug. Thank you so much for doing this, Bail.
For you and Obi-Wan anytime. How
did Sidious get his claws on Obi-Wan this time?
This time, Obi-Wan went voluntarily. Padme explained to Bail all that had transpired the last
few days. I wont let him just sacrifice himself like this.
Neither will I, Bail said
with determination. Well get him back, Padme.
Padme smiled
her gratitude. How is Leia?
Spunky as ever and beautiful. She
misses you.
You did tell her that
Yes, Padme, I told her.
Good. Its for the best. I do wish that I could see
her again, though. Padme perked up instantly. Ive
seen Luke, Bail! Hes beautiful!
Bail squeezed Padmes arm
with a smile. Im glad. He escorted her out of the bay and towards the lounge.
Now, we need to start laying out plans to get Obi-Wan back.
Sidious came
back to the apartment the next morning to again find Obi-Wan on the balcony. He
removed his cloak before stepping outside. Obi-Wan was
wrapped in a robe and had dark circles under his eyes.
Have you been out here all night?
Obi-Wan looked up from his chair. Not all, but most.
Nightmares again?
No, not this time. I just
couldnt get my mind to shut off.
Sidious held
up a hypospray. Ive come with you daily dose of
Force suppression.
Joy. Obi-Wan pulled up the sleeve to his robe to
expose his arm.
I wouldnt do it if I thought I could trust you not
to do something tricky. Sidious pressed the hypo to
Obi-Wans skin.
Obi-Wan gave him an ironic look. Ah, but you know me
better than that.
Indeed, I do.
That evening, Sidious walked
into the apartment to find Obi-Wan asleep on the sofa. A datapad
was resting on his chest. Sidious was struck again by
how much Obi-Wan looked like a boy.
Sidious used
the Force to pick Obi-Wan up and put him to bed. After tucking the covers
around him, Sidious put his hand on Obi-Wans forehead. Sleep well, Obi-Wan. He hoped the sleep
suggestion would keep him asleep the rest of the night.
Sidious
decided he would stay the night and make sure Obi-Wans
sleep was undisturbed. He went into the living area and made himself
comfortable.
Several hours later, Sidous
awoke from his dozing with a start. He walked quickly to Obi-Wans bedroom. Obi-Wan was thrashing around and mumbling.
No. No, Anakin!
Sidious sat on
the edge of the bed and shook him. Wake up, Obi-Wan! Obi-Wans
eyes flew open. His breathing came out in pants.
You were having another nightmare.
Obi-Wan got his breathing under control and sat up in
bed. He ran his fingers through his wet hair. What time is it?
Its around the third hour. You should get some more
sleep.
No!
I can keep the nightmares at bay for you.
Obi-Wan was starting to get
REALLY confused by the Emperors behavior. Why? Why wouldnt you use my
nightmares against me? Why arent you trying to turn me to the Dark Side?
Sidious looked
away. Because I cant.
Why cant you?
Sidious
glanced back at Obi-Wan, fidgeting. Becausebecause that would mean having to
hurt you.
Obi-Wans eyes grew wide.
You didnt seem to have that problem the last time we were together.
Yes, I did. Though not to this
degree. Sidious paused and looked Obi-Wan in
the eye. That feeling has increased greatly since we were last together.
Obi-Wan kept his face neutral. What feeling is that?
Sidious
winced. Hes not going to make this easy for me. He took a death breath and
decided to just plunge ahead. This feeling of pride that I
have in your accomplishments and abilities. This feeling that I want to
protect you as a father would his son. This feeling of
wanting to have my son by my side.
Obi-Wan didnt know what to say. He never really
thought that Sidious would admit his feelings.
Sidious got
off the bed and paced. He was extremely annoyed with himself. There, I said
it. Its a heck of a thing for a Sith
to have to admit!
Obi-Wan looked at him steadily. I know.
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Three weeks later, Obi-Wan wiped the sweat from his
eyes as he readied for another blow. He swung his leg around and made contact.
He swung back around and caught the swinging punching bag, stilling it. Obi-Wan
bent over to catch his breath, resting his hands on his knees.
A few days after arriving back on Coruscant, Obi-Wan had asked
the Emperor for some exercise equipment. Obi-Wan had known that he was going to
need some way to expend his energy and release his growing frustration. Over
the course of these three weeks, Obi-Wan had found the need to use the
equipment more and more frequently.
Obi-Wan stretched a bit and got ready for another
round of kick boxing. Hed always had strong legs and used them often in
combat. His roadhouse kicks and his full in-the-air double kicks had felled
many a foe. Now, he whacked the large punching bag over and over.
Frustration and irritation had been mounting in
Obi-Wan. Not being able to release those emotions into the Force was giving him
the need to release them through physical activity. The Emperor was not acting
anything like a Sith where
he was concerned. And yet, Obi-Wan could not forget all the things the Emperor
had done. The fatherly affection Sidious was showing
him was a complete contradiction to his character! That disparate contradiction
was greatly adding to his frustration.
Being back on Coruscant was
continuing to bring forth painful memories. Images of Bant,
Garen, Reeft, Mace all his departed friends kept implanting themselves
in his mind. Memories of the
The nightmares had greatly increased these last few
weeks, as well. If Obi-Wan wanted to get any sleep he had to depend on Sidious to stop the nightmares and calm his mind. That
rankled Obi-Wan greatly. The last thing he wanted was to depend on Sidious for his peace of mind!
On top of everything else, Obi-Wan missed Padme so much it was a gaping wound in his heart. He had
failed her. He had failed to provide her with safety and some much-deserved
happiness. He had abandoned her, the way hed always promised her he wouldnt.
Would she be able to forgive him? Or would she see it as yet another betrayal
by another husband? That worry above all ate at his soul.
Sidious walked
into the apartment that evening to hear the telltale grunts and smacking sounds
of Obi-Wans kick boxing. He walked in that direction
and paused to observe. Obi-Wan was wearing only a pair
of leggings. Sweat ran down his bare chest and back. He face was soaked, as was
his hair. He just kept swinging and swinging, packing one powerful kick after
another.
Sidious could
sense Obi-Wans growing frustration. Over the last
few weeks, hed been acting more and more like a caged animal. Sidious knew that it would only be a matter of time before
Obi-Wan took out some of that pent-up frustration on him. It was inevitable.
Sidious moved
into full-view. Obi-Wan stopped - a look of irritation etched in his features.
Obi-Wan hated the fact that Sidious could sneak up on
him like that. He grabbed his towel and dried off his face. How long have you
been here? He didnt even attempt to keep the irritation out of his voice.
Not long. Sidious stepped
aside as Obi-Wan swept by him into the living area. He watched as Obi-Wan
started to pace, rolling and unrolling the towel around his hands. Ah, here
we go. The pent-up frustration cometh.
Obi-Wan stopped his pacing. Let me ask you a
question. If you dont plan on trying to turn me to the Dark Side, then why am
I here? Do you plan to just hold me here like some sort of pet?
Sidious walked
further into the living area. I dont see you as a pet.
Obi-Wan narrowed his eyes. Oh, thats right. You see
me as a son. Well, do you plan to keep your SON locked up forever?
Sidious sat
down with a sigh. I dont know.
No matter how long you keep me here, Im not going to
be able to reciprocate your feelings. Obi-Wans
anger was growing. He started pacing again. You destroyed EVERYTHING that was
good in this galaxy! You took away everything that was important to me. You
destroyed the Jedi Order my way of life. You murdered all of my friends and
comrades. You warped the mind of my former apprentice and turned him into
someone who hated me and wanted to kill me!
Obi-Wan stopped in front of the window, his back to Sidious. I will never be able to forget any of that, Sidious. Not ever.
Sidious stood.
I know that, Obi-Wan. Without another word, he left the apartment.
Obi-Wan turned around to find the Emperor gone. A
small feeling of guilt pricked at him. He ran his fingers through his hair and
shook his head. It was ridiculous for him to feel guilty about hurting the
feelings of a Sith! Maybe
Padme and Yoda are right, I AM too prone to guilt.
Early the next morning, Obi-Wan
headed into the kitchen for some breakfast. His hair was
still wet from his shower. He opened the cupboard to pull out a box of tea when
he heard the front door open. He looked up to see several men stream in,
blasters at the ready. At the front was Bail Organa.
At the end of the stream of men was Padme. Obi-Wan
just stood there gaping.
Obi! Padme ran to her husband and threw herself in his arms.
Obi-Wan held her tight. When he could find his voice, he asked, How did you
Padme pulled
back and covered his mouth with her finger. Well talk later.
Are you alone in here? Bail looked around in
confusion.
Obi-Wan was just as confused.
Yes. Didnt you encounter any resistance? There used to be a mini-garrison
stationed outside the door.
No. There was nothing. We anticipated having to make
quite a fight of it, but theres nobody out there anymore.
Thats strange. Obi-Wan glanced at the dining table.
His lightsaber was laying on it, next to a datapad. He picked up the datapad
and started to read.
Obi-Wan,
I have decided to let you go free. You
were right, I cannot keep you locked up forever and I cant make you look at me
as a father. Another reason I didnt try and turn you to the Dark Side this
time is because I knew it would be useless. I have come to see what I didnt
want to see before - you will NEVER turn to the Dark Side. You are as firmly
planted in the Light as I am in the Dark. Even unto death, I know you would
resist. I also know that keeping you locked up and unable to access the Force
would slowly but surely destroy your spirit. I would not want to watch that
happen. I will not try and track you down again. I will also try to keep Vader too
busy to look for you. The guards are gone. You may leave when you wish. Take
whatever you want from the apartment. All of it is yours.
I am and forever will be a Sith, however, I also know that I
am forever changed. You changed me. You touched something in me that I didnt
know existed. You are the son that I never knew I wanted. I shall miss your
company.
Palpatine
P.S. Here is your lightsaber.
I figured that you might need it.
Padme came
up to Obi-Wan. What is it, Obi?
Its a note from Sidious.
Hes letting me go. He called away the guards and says that Im free to leave.
Even as he said the words, he found them hard to believe.
Bail looked dumbfounded. Hes letting you go? After
all the pains he took to get you back?
Obi-Wan smiled weakly. Its a long, complicated
story. He turned off the datapad and slipped it into
his pocket. He clipped the lightsaber onto his belt.
He went into the office to get another datapad. He
typed in two simple words, Thank you. He signed it and left it on the dining
table. Well, he said Im free to take whatever I want. And I think I will.
Obi-Wan went off to pack up some things he wanted to
take. Padme watched him with a look of disbelief. She
turned to Bail. I cant believe this! This is obviously the will of the Force,
because I never in a million years would have thought this possible!
Bail nodded his head. I think I can safely say that
Ive seen it all.
Almost immediately after getting back on board the
cloaked ship, Obi-Wan and Padme went off to their room
to be alone. They sat down on the edge of the bed, hands intertwined. Obi-Wan
looked down at their hands, finding it hard to look Padme
in the eyes. Will you ever be able to forgive me, Padme?
Padme
released one of his hands and tilted his head up. Theres nothing to forgive,
Babe. You saved Luke and I from being caught by Sidious or Vader or both. You were willing to sacrifice
yourself yet again for us. Thats amazing to me. Youre amazing.
No, Padme. I shouldnt have
left you. I should have been stronger.
Padme sighed
heavily as she covered his mouth with her hand. Will you PLEASE stop beating
yourself up! I know its one of your favorite hobbies, but it does get old!
She released his mouth, giving him an exasperated look.
Obi-Wan managed a sheepish smile. This he quickly
turned into a mock-stern look. You didnt listen to me when I said not to come
after me.
Of course not! I
wasnt about to let you go without a fight! Padme
grinned at him.
Obi-Wan just looked at his wife, wanting to never be
away from her again. I missed you.
Padme threw
her arms around Obi-Wan. Oh, I missed you too!
Obi-Wan and Padme were now back in their hut on Tatooine.
They were lying in bed, wrapped in each others arms. Padme
had her head resting on her husbands chest. Are you ever going to tell me
what happened between you and Sidious?
Its really hard to explain.
Try me.
Well, those feelings of fatherly affection he had for
me a year and a half ago have grown. Its the weirdest thingHe displayed
feelings of tenderness and protectiveness towards me. He made no attempts to
turn me to the Dark Side. He said that he couldnt because he didnt want to
hurt me.
Padme sat up
at that. What?
I know! Its baffling! It seems he just wanted to be
near me. He enjoyed my company. The night before you arrived, I let him know
that I couldnt reciprocate his feelings - that I could never forget the
horrible things hed done. Obi-Wan reached over and pulled a datapad out of the drawer of the nightstand. This is the
note he left me.
Padme took
the datapad and read it. When she was finished, she
stared up at Obi-Wan, wide-eyed. That isunbelievable. Why did he sign it Palpatine?
He said that when he was with me, he felt more like Palpatine than Sidious. Obi-Wan
shook his head. I cant explain it, Hon.
He loves you, Obi-Wan.
Obi-Wan looked at Padme
skeptically. I think thats too strong a word. A Sith isnt capable of love.
I would have thought that a Sith wasnt capable of any of the qualities hes
shown towards you. But putting the needs of someone else ahead of your own
desires is an act of love. He wanted you near him, but he was still willing to
let you go. Believe me, Im not one to readily apply any positive attributes to
Sidious. But he loves you like a son, of that I have
no doubt.
Great. That just makes this all the morecreepy.
Padme
laughed and nestled up against Obi-Wans chest again.
Have I mentioned to you lately that I love you?
Not in the last ten minutes, no.
Obi-Wan grinned down at her.
Nine years later, Darth Vader was gazing out one of
the viewports on his Star Destroyer. He had pretty well
given up on finding Obi-Wan. He still couldnt believe that his master had let
Obi-Wan go! It was unthinkable for a Sith
to do such a thing. Vader had wanted to rage at his master when he found out,
but knew better of it. Now, his relationship with his master was pretty well
nonexistent. They stayed as far away from each other as possible, communicating
long distance when necessary.
Vader had gone back to searching for Obi-Wan, but it
was again like hed disappeared from the galaxy. Vader just hoped that someday
hed be given the opportunity to face his former master again. And if I do
see him again, I will kill him.
Obi-Wan and Padme were
perched in the rocks near the Lars moisture farm. Padme
was taking some more pictures of Luke as he did his chores. When Luke went
inside, Padme sat back and flipped through the
pictures shed just taken of her fourteen-year-old son.
Obi-Wan noticed Padme
shaking her head as she flipped through the pictures. What?
Padme turned
to Obi-Wan with an ironic look on her face. Unless he goes through one heck of
a growth spurt later on, it looks like he got my height genes instead of his
fathers.
Obi-Wan couldnt help but smile. As Yoda always used
to say, Size matters not.
Padme
laughed. Thats certainly true in his case!
Obi-Wan stood up, wincing. Im getting too old to sit
on rock for hours at a time.
You are not old!
Obi-Wan snorted. Are you kidding? Have you noticed
how much gray I have in my hair?
I think that has less to do with your age than with
all the stuff youve been through. Trauma will age us faster than anything. Padme frowned a bit. Besides, youre not the only who has
some gray hair.
On you, its fetching. Obi-Wan leaned in to kiss
her. Ready to go?
Yep. Would
you grab my things for me? I want to get a picture of this beautiful sunset.
As Obi-Wan packed their things onto the speeder bike, Padme
climbed up a bit on the rocks. She leaned into a crevice in the rock to get her
balance. As she moved her leg back, she felt something jab into her calf.
Ouch!
Obi-Wan looked up from the speeder bike. What the
matter?
Padme looked
down at her calf. The pant leg was ripped and her leg was now bleeding. Its
nothing. Its just a scratch. She looked for the source and saw a nasty looking
black thorn. The thorn was attached to a vine that was hanging in the crevice
of the rock.
Are you sure? Concern was evident on Obi-Wans face.
Padme waved
off his concern. Yes. Its nothing a little bacta
bandage wont fix. She steadied herself again and took the picture. There. Padme made her way down the rock. Lets go home.
Once back home, Padme went
into the fresher to fix up her leg. She pulled up her pant leg. It was a pretty
bad scratch, but it had already stopped bleeding. She cleaned it and put a
small bacta bandage on it. She then went into the
kitchen where Obi-Wan was already starting dinner.
Padme came
up behind Obi-Wan and put her arms around his waist. Where do you think I
should display my favorite picture from today?
Obi-Wan laughed. Thats a good question. I dont
think theres an inch of space anywhere in this hut that isnt already occupied
by a holodisk!
Oh, Ill find a place.
Im sure you will. Hows your leg?
Its fine. Like I said, just a
scratch.
The next morning, Obi-Wan woke up to hear Padme moaning. He sat up quickly and looked at his wife.
She was sweating profusely and twitching. Padme? He gently shook her. Honey?
Padme woke
up. She tried to fix her blurry eyes on her husband. She closed her eyes again
as a wave of nausea hit her. Obi, I feel terrible.
Obi-Wan hopped out of bed and went to the fresher. He
wet a cloth with cool water and brought it back. He wiped down her face and
then lay the cloth on her forehead. His concern grew
as he felt the pain emanating from her.
Moaning, Padme pulled
herself into the fetal position. It felt like fire was coursing through her veins.
She couldnt remember a time when she felt this horrible.
Obi-Wan pulled Padme into
his arms. He decided it was well worth the risk to use the Force to ease her
pain. He sent comforting waves of the Force into her body. Immediately she
relaxed a bit.
Ththank
you.
Obi-Wan knew he had to ask the question, but almost
didnt want to. Honey, what did you scratch your leg on yesterday?
Itwas a thorn. A big, black thorn attachedto a vine
of some kind.
Obi-Wans heart sunk down
into his stomach. Horror and panic started to flow through him, stealing his
breath.
Padme
immediately sensed the change in her husband. Obi, what is it? She looked him
in the eye. Tell me the truth.
Obi-Wan closed his eyes, releasing his feelings into
the Force. When he finally felt he could talk, he opened his eyes back up. The
thorn you were scratched with is poisonous. I didnt think that vine grew on
this part of Tatooine. When he had first moved to Tatooine years before, hed studied up on all of the flora
and fauna of the planet.
Padmes eyes
widened. She could see the horror and the grief in Obi-Wans
eyes. She gripped his hand tightly. Is there an anti-toxin?
Obi-Wan tried to keep his voice steady. Yes, but it
only works if its administered within a couple of hours after contact. Stay
strong. She needs you to be strong.
And if it isnt?
Despite Obi-Wans best
efforts, tears began to fall from his eyes. Theres nothing that can be done.
The poison attacks the central nervous system.
Padme tried
to let it all sink in. How long do I have?
Obi-Wan was losing his battle
for control. Most peopledie within twenty-fourhours. He pulled Padme closer to him. He couldnt lose her! How could he
make it without her?
Padme put
her hand on her husbands wet cheek and looked into his glistening eyes. Its
supposed to be this way, my love. He shook his head, not wanting to accept it.
Padme stroked his face. Yes, it is. Ever since our
stay on Dagobah, Ive known that I was to go first.
Obi-Wan looked at her questioningly. You mean, Yoda
told you that?
Yes, after I asked him. Padme
kissed his hand. Obi, will you please get me my journal? Its in the drawer of
my nightstand.
Obi-Wan reached into the drawer and pulled out the datapad. He handed it to her in a daze. This couldnt be
happening! Please tell me this isnt real!
Thank you. I want to write my final goodbye to Luke
and Leia while I still have use of my faculties. She
could feel Obi-Wan start to shake as sobs wracked his body. She nestled herself
into his arms, holding him tight.
Several hours later, Obi-Wan still held Padme in his arms. He could feel her getting weaker and
weaker. Her breathing had become more labored.
Obi?
Yes, my love?
Despite everything thats happened,
these have been the happiest ten years of my life.
Obi-Wan kissed the top of her head. Mine, too.
Youre strong, Obi-Wan. Youll get through this.
Youllgo on and complete your mission.
Obi-Wan tried to keep his voice steady. I cant see
how Ill get through a day without you here.
You will. Padme could feel
her strength fading fast. Obi, I need youto promise me something.
Anything.
When the time is right, have Luke and Leiacome here together. I want themto read my journal
first and thenlook at all the holopics. This is our
home. This iswhere I spent the happiest ten years of my life,
so I want them to come HERE.
Of course, I promise.
Padme sighed
and closed her eyes. She knew her time was near. She could almost sense the
Force beckoning her. I love you, Obi-Wan Kenobi. Remember thatI will be
waitingfor you.
Tears slid down Obi-Wans
face. He could feel that she would be leaving him soon. I love you too, Padme Kenobi. I will be looking forward to the time when I
can join you. He held her tight and stroked her face. He could feel her start
to slip away. His voice cracked as he said, Ill miss you.
Padme smiled
weakly. Illmiss youtoo. With one last shaky breath, Padme
was gone.
Obi-Wan cried, rocking his wifes lifeless form in his
arms.
Six years later, Obi-Wan came back inside the hut
after meditating. The pinks and peaches of dawn were starting to shine on the
horizon. He started a kettle for tea and went to the fresher. He looked at
himself in the mirror and shook his head. I look ancient. His hair was
now white. Hed let his beard grow back. All he had left to him was his last
mission as a Jedi, so hed wanted to look more like he had as a Jedi.
Padme was
right. Trauma does age you before your time. He studied his
image in the mirror and thought that he looked a good ten years older than he
was. He shook his head as he got undressed. He hadnt exactly been taking care
of himself well these last six years, either. Hed stopped working on his katas, stopped practicing with his lightsaber
completely. He hadnt kept himself up physically at all. He knew hed be a lot
slower now with the lightsaber or any strenuous
physical activity.
Obi-Wan knew that Padme
would not approve of the way hed let himself go. He just couldnt find it in
himself to care too much about anything, aside from fulfilling his mission and
then joining Padme in the Force. He spent a lot of
time outside, despite the heat. He found it hard to stay in the home hed shared
with Padme for so long. Hed packed away all of the holodisks, along with her journal (which hed never read)
and the poem shed written him, in a trunk. He just couldnt bear their
memories.
And now, as he sat drinking his tea, he could sense
the Force calling him. He knew it was time to start his final mission. It was
time to meet up with Luke Skywalker.
They slowly circled each other, former master and
former apprentice. Malicious joy filled Darth Vader as he gazed at the man in
front of him. You have not aged well, Obi-Wan. Vader reveled in the firm
belief that he would strike this old man down, once and for all. Finally, he
would be rid of this thorn in his side.
As Obi-Wan looked at the dark figure in front of him,
he felt a peace flow through him from the Force. He felt with utter certainty
that his time to join with the Force had come. Vader will get his wish. He
will be the one to facilitate my entry. As they started their duel, Obi-Wan
was a bit chagrined at the rustiness of his lightsaber skills. Thats what you get for not bothering
to pick one up for six years!
Thats when Obi-Wan saw them Luke, Leia and the others. They were running back to the Millenium Falcon. He saw Luke pause and start to head
towards him. He felt the concern emanating from the young man. Poor Luke,
this will be hard for him. Obi-Wan knew it was time. With a smile, he
stopped fighting and let Vaders blade sweep into him.
All the way across the galaxy, the Emperor felt Obi-Wans blazing Force signature extinguished. He now felt the
gaping hole in the Living Force left by Obi-Wans
departure. Sidious leaned back in his chair with a
heavy sigh. He knew that it had been Vader who had killed him. He also knew
that Obi-Wan had let himself be killed that he had wanted to die.
In his own way, Sidious
began to grieve the man he had loved as a son. Yes, he had loved Obi-Wan. Amazing, but true. Obi-Wan had managed to engender feelings
of fatherly love in him a Sith.
But now, all he felt was emptiness. Blackness consumed his heart again. He knew
that he could never again feel for anyone what he had felt for Obi-Wan.
Sidious could
sense another presence in the Living Force. He had just recently begun to sense
this somehow familiar, yet still light-filled signature. Vader has a son.
Sidious was certain of it now. He couldnt help but
smile. Obi-Wan had managed to keep the boy hidden from them all these years. Obi-Wan
never fails to surprise. Sidious
balled up his hands into fists as the uncomfortable feeling of grief hit him
again.
Hissing out his breath, Sidious
channeled his grief into anger. His anger found its focal point in Darth Vader.
Someday, Vader, I will replace you with your own son. And if he refuses to
be turned, I will kill your son as you killed mine.
Luke and Leia sat together
on the sofa in the hut on Tatooine. It had been a
year since the Death Star, the Sith
and the Empire had been destroyed. Luke had begun Leias
Jedi training almost immediately following those events. Once she was able to
see and hear Obi-Wan and Yoda in the Force, they began to help Luke in training
her. Leia knew that she was blessed indeed to be trained
by the last two remaining Jedi of the old Order.
Luke and Leia had read
through Padmes journal in utter awe. They now had
just one last entry to read.
My dear children, I do not have much
longer to live. I just want you to know how much I love you. Even though I
could not be with you, you were in my thoughts constantly. I hope this journal
will help you to understand who I was and why I made the decisions I made. I
also hope it will help you to understand those who had an impact on my life. Of
course, no one had more of an impact than my dear Obi. I hope you will always
remember the sacrifices he made for us. I look forward to the time when I will
finally get to know you personally. Until then, know that I will be watching
over you with love and with pride.
Both Luke and Leia had tears
in their eyes as they let their mothers words wash over them. Luke wiped at
his eyes as he leaned forward. Obi-Wan?
The blue, glowing form of Obi-Wan appeared. He looked
at the two tear-streaked faces with an understanding smile. I take it that
youre finished?
Both nodded. Luke then shook his head, an ironic look
on his face. You were married to my mother! Boy, when you hold back, you
REALLY hold back.
Obi-Wan sat down across from them. Everything
in its time, Luke. You were not ready to hear all of these truths in the
beginning. Telling you too soon would have done more harm than good.
I know. Its a lot to take in, though.
Leia looked
at Obi-Wan curiously. Did you ever read Mothers journal?
No. That was her love letter to you. I thought it
should remain a private thing between you and her.
Emotion welled in Leias
brown eyes. Thank you, Obi-Wan, for everything you did for our mother and for
us.
Luke quickly nodded his head in agreement. Yes, thank
you, Obi-Wan.
Obi-Wans head lowered a
bit. Theres no need to thank me. It was the least I could do after
Leia put up
her hand. Stop right there. Dont you think its about time to let go of your
guilt?
Obi-Wan looked sheepish. I suppose so. Old habits die
hard.
Luke looked at Obi-Wan with a serious expression.
Your guilt is misplaced, anyway. You really do see things from a different
point a view, as you once put it to me. You once told me that it was your
arrogance that led you to train our father - that you thought you could train
him just as well as Yoda. That viewpoint is distorted because of your guilt.
What Mother described here in her journal and what Yoda has told me dispute
your view of it.
Annoyance showed on Leias
face. Arrogance? Obi-Wan, there isnt an arrogant
bone in your body!
Obi-Wan put up his hands in surrender. Okay, okay!
Considering Im dead, I suppose I should work on letting it go. Besides, Ive
been given this lecture by your mother for YEARS. He got a faraway expression
for a moment. And she continues that lecture to this day.
Luke and Leia shared a
smile. Well, shes absolutely right, Leia said with
a laugh.
Luke suddenly turned serious. Obi-Wan, will you ever
be able to forgive our father?
Before Obi-Wan could answer, Leia
shot her brother a disgusted look. Luke, will you stop saying, Our father!
He is NOT my father. Bail Organa was and always will
be my father. As far as Im concerned, Anakin Skywalker was nothing more than a
sperm doner!
Luke looked at his sister aghast. Leia!
Leia
crossed her arms and gave Luke a determined look. I mean it, Luke. I will
never see Anakin as my father.
Obi-Wan tried hard not to smile. You remind me so
much of your mother! You have her same fiery spirit.
With a glance at his sister, Luke started again. Will
you ever be able to forgive ANAKIN for what he did?
Obi-Wan was thoughtful for a
moment. In time I can probably come to forgive him. However, I know that I
shall never be able to forget. I will never be able to forget what was lost
the Order, the
Before reading the journal, neither Luke nor Leia had known the extent to which Anakin had fallen.
Theyd had no idea that he had even killed babies and little children. Leia shuddered. He was a monster! I was there when he and
his cronies destroyed Alderaan. Millions of people,
including my father, were killed in one shot. I dont care that he has come
back to the Light. I dont think I can ever forgive him.
Obi-Wan nodded his head. Yes, hes come back to the
Light, for which Im grateful. But he will not have an easy afterlife. After
all the celebration and joy dissipated after the fall of the Empire, Anakin
realized that he now had to face those hed sent to the Force. All of the Jedi,
including the young ones, all of the Force-sensitives
that he murdered are there in the Force with Anakin now. He is not exactly
being welcomed with open arms. Some of those he killed may eventually forgive
him, but some wont. Anakin will be something of an outcast for all eternity
forever reminded of what he did.
Anger burned in Leias eyes.
Its no less than he deserves.
Curiosity shone in Lukes eyes. Has he made an
attempt to talk with you?
Obi-Wan sighed. Yes. Im afraid it did not go well.
What about Mother? Has he tried to talk with her?
Yes, he has, but Padme
wants nothing to do with him. Obi-Wan sat up straighter. If she doesnt want
to talk to Anakin, I will support that decision. I will not let him force the
issue.
Leia
couldnt help but smile at the protectiveness in his tone. I know youll
support her as you always have. She made it perfectly clear in her journal that
you never gave her cause to doubt your love or your loyalty.
Obi-Wan smiled knowingly. Yes, well, she also has a
tendency to over-exaggerate my good points. He suddenly got that faraway look
again. Exasperation crept into his eyes. HonHoney Obi-Wan looked at Luke
and Leia with a grin. Excuse me for a moment. With
that, he disappeared.
Uh, oh. I have
the feeling that Mother is giving him a good talking-to! Mirth was dancing in Leias eyes. Luke nodded his head with a laugh.
Obi-Wan reappeared with an ironic smile on his face.
I have been instructed to tell you that your mother did not exaggerate about
me. Then Obi-Wan silently mouthed, Yes, she did.
Both Luke and Leia dissolved
into laughter. I dont know, Obi-Wan, Luke then said. Anyone who could bring
about feelings of fatherly love in the EMPEROR has to be someone special. I
frankly dont see how that could have been possible with thatthat creature!
Obi-Wan shrugged his shoulders. I dont know. It
still baffles me.
Well, he certainly didnt have any such feelings for
me! He had NO hesitations in trying to kill me when I wouldnt turn.
Obi-Wan gazed at Luke with affection. Im very proud
of the way you clung to the Light, despite Sidious
onslaught.
Leia looked
at her brother with the same affection. So am I.
Luke squeezed his sisters hand. Thank you. Luke
felt joy fill him at the compliment from Obi-Wan. To receive a compliment like
that from a man who had suffered so much more and had still clung to the Light
Leia got up
off the sofa and sat down on the floor by the trunk. Now, I want to see
Mothers holopics. Luke eagerly joined her as she
reached in and grabbed a few holodisks. They were all
labeled. The one entitled Wedding Day caught her eye. She turned it on and
they both gazed at the first projection. Leia stared
at the picture, wide-eyed. Obi-Wan, you were gorgeous!
Obi-Wan was obviously
embarrassed, but tried to look indignant. Hey, dont sound so surprised!
Leia
laughed. Im not. She continued to slowly flip through the pictures. Its
justwow. You two made a beautiful couple!
Luke stared at his mother. You were right, Leia, she WAS beautiful. He turned to study Leia. You look so much like her.
Obi-Wan smiled warmly at Leia.
That she does.
Leia picked
up another disk and turned it on. Oh, Luke, you were so cute!
Luke gazed at the pictures of himself as a
four-year-old. Its hard to believe that my mother was so close
Worry entered Obi-Wans
eyes. You do understand why she couldnt visit you, dont you, Luke?
Luke turned to Obi-Wan. Yes, I do. Dont worry, I dont
blame her. But the unfairness of it all has just really hit me. I was robbed of
knowing my mother. She was robbed of knowing her son and daughter all because
of
HIM, Leia spat out.
Anger entered Lukes eyes. Yes.
Obi-Wan gazed at them with empathy. Believe me, I
understand your anger. But dont let your anger fester. You have to let it go
or it will cloud your judgement.
Luke and Leia lowered their
heads. Yes, Master.
Leia turned
on another holodisk and immediately perked up. She
caught you practicing with your lightsaber! Luke
leaned in to stare intently.
Yes. Obi-Wan laughed at the memory. Padme was a stealthy sniper with that holocam.
Leia
couldnt help but admire the shirtless man in the pictures. Well, I can
certainly see why you were Mothers favorite subject! She turned and grinned
at Obi-Wan. She knew that if a spirit could blush, he would be crimson.
Luke rolled his eyes. He was admiring the beauty of
the katas the obvious strength and grace of the
movements. Can you teach us how to do these movements?
Obi-Wan grinned. Now that Im not limited by my
worn-out body, I can teach you all the katas. Well,
the movements anyway I cant exactly pick up a lighsaber
now.
Luke was excited. I would love to learn how to use a lightsaber like you did like a Jedi Master of the Order!
Obi-Wan looked wistful. A Jedi Master of the Order
Luke looked at Obi-Wan with determined eyes. Well
build the Jedi Order back to where it was, Master. It will take time, but we
will do it. Were going to rebuild the
Obi-Wan raised an eyebrow at that. And here I thought
the afterlife was going to be restful.
Leia
laughed. Guess again! But I cant think of anyone better to teach them or me.
I am very proud that you are my teacher, Master Kenobi.
Luke nodded his head solemnly. As
am I.
At their heartfelt words, Obi-Wan felt the weight of
his guilt start to truly leave him. Thank you both.
Luke glanced at Leia.
Please tell our Mother that we love her.
Obi-Wan smiled. You just told her yourself. She wants
me to tell you that she loves you both very much. And that shes
proud of you.
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