To Love
Deeply
Obi-Wan stepped out of the shower, wrapped a towel around his waist and
proceeded to dry off his hair. As he glanced at himself in the mirror, he
noticed that more gray had crept into his hair and beard. He shook his head and
sighed, he was not yet forty. The war had definitely taken its toll on him.
He combed his hair and turned to step out of the refresher when he caught site
of her lying on her stomach across the sleep couch, propped on her elbows, and
staring at a data pad. He took in a deep breath. Her body was completely bare
except for the sheet strategically draped over her.
Its certainly clear what you have on your mind this evening.
She didnt look up from the data pad she was studying, but she did raise one
leg at the knee, shifting the covering so it exposed her foot and the lower
part of her leg. The sheet settled across her posterior forming to her shape.
There is no time anymore to be coy and play games, Obi-Wan. Youve just
returned and I ship out in the morning. So drop the towel and come over here.
He folded his arms across his chest and leaned against the doorframe. I
thought we had agreed to keep those things out of our sleeping chambers, he
said lifting his chin towards the data pad.
She instantly closed it and tucked it under the sleep couch. Hows
that?
Not good enough. You need to remove it from this room.
A smile spread across her face as she turned to her side and propped her head
on one hand, the sheet twisting with her. Nope. Im
not getting up. You just want to see me parade my naked ass across the room and
back.
Obi-Wan frowned. What would you do if I told you I wasnt up for it tonight?
You dont want to? she asked as she pulled the sheet against her, a hint of sadness
in her voice. Obi-Wan also felt a retreat in her aura and suddenly felt the
ache of separation from her.
He cleared his throat. Perhaps, I was being a bit hasty
Her sapphire eyes sparked mischief. Haste has no place
here this evening, Obi-Wan, she replied as she arched two fingers towards him
and through the Force she released the tuck of the towel at his waist. It fell
to the floor at his feet.
Sure, Siri. You can have me
parade over there naked, but you wont do the same for me.
She lifted the sheet for him to slide under. You dont have ugly stretch marks
to hide.
He crawled into the bed, lying on his side facing her. Youre being
ridiculous. You always say that and I cant even see them. He propped himself
on his elbow and tucked her blonde hair behind her ear with his free hand.
She smiled and traced a finger across his brow. Hello, stranger, she said.
He leaned forward and softly kissed her jaw. How I wish that wasnt true.
She rolled onto her back and he put his arm across her waist. Their lips met in
a gentle kiss.
The truth was he had known her all his life. They had both been brought to the
Obi-Wan slowly slid his hand up her side from the top of her thigh, over her
hip to the swell of her breast. She stretched under his caress, slipped an arm
over his shoulder and molded her body closer to him. The soft touch of her skin
flush against his made him suck in a breath and he pressed his lips to her neck
where he could feel her pulse beat.
Its nice to know I can still excite you, he whispered.
She giggled. Weve known each other so long, you just
know which buttons to push.
He deftly brushed his thumb across the nipple of her breast. Yes, I suppose I
do, he replied as she released an almost inaudible sigh.
She turned her head and brought her lips close to his. Im just lucky you
still like to push my buttons.
Yes, he still liked to push her buttons. He treasured every inch of her. When
they were first married, she was so thin, but after the birth of their first
child she had rounded out beautifully. She increased a bust size and had just a
bit more flesh to hold on to. She complained that her body had changed for the
worst, but Obi-Wan loved navigating her curves even more.
So whats on the menu tonight, milady?
Slow and easy, Master Jedi, with no barriers, she purred, sliding an open
hand down his chest.
He kissed her just to the side of her lips. You arent concerned about certain
outcomes?
She pulled away enough to be able to see into his eyes. No. Are you?
He held her closer in his arms, his cheek beside hers. With the war raging
this may not be a good time, Siri. I would love to
have an excuse to keep you here at the
The odds are slim anyway, Obi-Wan. I dont know when I will see you againor
if. Her voice lowered to a whisper. I just want to be with you fully. I dont
think thats too much to ask.
Its not too much for me. He kissed her softly, gently opening her lips with
his own. He could feel her aura completely open to him through the Force and it
added to his excitement. He opened himself completely to her.
Being a Jedi was a difficult life of hard work and sacrifice. Being married and
being a Jedi had its own set of problems. There could
be long periods of separation and there was always the worry that one would
lose his or her spouse during a mission. As a result, a Jedi, though committed
through marriage had to remember it wasnt a possessive state and if loss did
occur, he or she must accept that and let go of the attachment. The majority of
knights didnt marry and for the most part marriage was discouraged in the
Order, but not forbidden. For a Jedi to marry anyone outside the Order was
completely frowned upon.
But for Obi-Wan and Siri, their marriage was a haven
against the rest of the galaxy. The precious time they spent together only
deepened the bonds between them. Their union also helped them affirm their
lives to the Jedi as they supported each other in that life. They shared dreams
of the future when they were old and could retire. They hoped to have the time
they didnt have now to stroll through the
Each kiss and caress built upon the other as they brought heightened sensations
to both partners. Pulses raced, breathing became heavy and warmth radiated off
their bodies. The sheet had long since been pushed away from them. Obi-wan
rolled over on his back taking Siri with him. She
settled her body on top of his and with one hand on her posterior,
Obi-Wan helped her slide down onto him. The sensation of the connection always
brought about a sharp intake of breath.
Siri leaned over him, her silky hair brushing against
his cheek. Oh you do feel so good, Obi-Wan, she cooed into his ear as she let
out a long heavy sigh.
He let out a low chuckle, reached up his hand along her face, kissing her
cheek. Its quite good from my point of view, too, Siri.
Its about to get better, Master Kenobi.
She knew just which buttons to push for Obi-Wan, too. Her legs fell along the
outside of his as she positioned her body for more and she began the sliding
movements of her hips against him. But their intimacy went far beyond physical
pleasure. They were now joined in every way and while their bodies progressed
to a higher plane of awareness, so did their minds and spirits.
With his hands around her waist assisting her in her movements Obi-Wan sensed
her release coming. He brought his face towards hers and trailed warm kisses
along her jaw, then he brought his lips to that spot
on her neck that seemed to be more sensitive than the rest, careful that his
beard was soft against her skin and didnt scratch her. She emitted a heavy
groan as release washed over her, then Obi-Wan
followed her cue and succumbed to his release.
Still breathing heavily, she hooked her arms under his shoulders, tucked her
head under his chin and hugged him tight. He wrapped his arms around her,
holding on to the moment and the feelings.
Soon they relaxed, letting sleep drift over them.
I love you, Obi-Wan. She placed a kiss on his bare chest.
Brushing her hair back from her face, he kissed the top of her head. I love
you, too, Siri.
~*~
The baby was beautiful, simply beautiful with his downy
blonde hair, flawless skin and crystal blue eyes.
No, I will not take him! Obi-Wan was adamant, pain and resentment evident in
his voice. The Order is gone. My family is gone. I will not take
responsibility for the child of a man who destroyed everything I loved the
most.
The little green Master hung his head in grief. Then already won, the Emperor
has.
Obi-Wan stood up and turned his back to Yoda. In the adjacent room was the
lifeless body of Padme Skywalker,
but the children she had conceived by Anakin were alive and healthy.
As long as one of us there still is, exists the Jedi Order does. Hope of the
future, this boy is. Called to do this you are, Obi-Wan.
Obi-Wan shook his head. He was trying to get the image out of his mind of the
youngling bodies lying scattered on the Temple floor, two of which were his own
children. And Siri in the last stages of her
pregnancy was at the
Promised them, we did. Promised you and Siri, we did. Foresee this, we did not. Yoda paused trying
to reach one of his dearest students. Killed by his own hands was young
Skywalkers wife.
Anakin was my best friend.
Twisted by the dark side he was. Made his own choices he did, Obi-Wan, but
greatly manipulated by Sidious, he was. If you choose
to be free of this duty, turn your back on everything you ever loved, you do.
Everything I loved is gone, Master Yoda. Obi-Wan retorted, as he brushed his
hand over his face. Trying still to hold back his terrible
grief.
Not so, Obi-Wan. Still a Jedi you are. Still a future there is. Think of what
your wife and children died for.
They died because they were Jedi, and because they believed. His shoulders
slumped in realization. If he didnt take Luke, everything his family had lived
for and died for would truly mean nothing. And that he could not do to Siri.
Why, Master Yoda, did this burden have to be mine? Why did I survive?
Because take the burden, you will. Love deeply you do, Obi-Wan. Loved deeply,
your wife and children and Anakin, you did. Love deeply the Jedi Order and love
deeply truth and beauty and justice. Your grief will lessen and rebuild, you
will. The little green Master leaned on his gimer
stick, relief flooding him as he sensed he had finally reached his former
pupil.
I can not raise the boy myself, Master. I will take him to Tatooine,
to Anakins family. I will stay and watch over him. Obi-Wan acquiesced.
Yoda shook his head in agreement. Good enough, that is Obi-Wan.
Laying a green claw on the arm of the younger man, Yoda said,
May the Force be with you, Obi-Wan.
Jedikma