Alone, My Padawan
I stand here now,
on the sands of Tatooine and watch as Beru takes your son inside for the night.
Hes nearly three standard years now; not that you know he exists. Hes so
alike you, yet nothing like you at the same time.
He will never be
seduced like you, Padawan.
Because he is not
an arrogant boy. Neither was I, you might argue. But, my dear Padawan, you
were. Arrogant, conceited, acted before you had chance to think...but you were
also intelligent, brave, kind and like a son to me.
And you have missed
the chance for a son of your own.
Your own daughter.
Your own wife.
Youre in this
whole predicament, I believe, because you loved too much. You oozed passion and
lacked serenity.
I have not had
complete calm for years.
Since you turned?
No, Padawan; before
then.
I havent been
completely calm since I first shook your hand on Tatooine. I felt the dark in
you; forming beneath the innocent exterior.
I felt what you
would become.
I saw what you
would do.
Does that surprise
you Padawan-mine? That a saw the mask you wear before you had even first held a
lightsaber? Does it confuse you that I saw you slaughtering the Jedi, our kin,
and yet said nothing-
...You always
under-estimated me and over-estimated yourself, Padawan, that is your problem,
I think.
But, anyway, Im
getting off topic. I tend to do that more and more as I age, Anakin. I look
older than I am, Ani, far older. I suspect my hair would still be auburn if I
had never taken you as my apprentice.
That sounds awful,
doesnt it Padawan? I never wanted you, Anakin, but I knew I had to take you. I
knew I had to, because I could not refuse my dying Masters wish. I knew,
because I saw your destiny, my destiny, Lukes destiny. I knew, because when I
consulted Master Yoda, he informed me that however much I tried, I could not
run from the inevitable.
The inevitable.
Your turning.
You turned.
The fall of the
Jedi.
We fell.
The Republic
poisoned from within.
The poison pulsed
through its veins and erupted in a river of blood .
The love you have
for a son you dont even know.
It will save you.
Yet, you will die
Anakin. I remember Padme told me you said you would find a way to stop people
from dying, once.
So young and
naïve you were, my Anakin
If I told you that
one young Jedis compassion would redeem you, you would likely laugh at me and
run your lightsaber through my chest.
You wanted to
become the greatest Jedi of them all, did you not, Padawan?
I sense that honour
may fall to Luke.
It would seem that
Luke will become what you could have been had you not fallen to Palpatine. But
that isnt true, Anakin.
That will be the
Emperors first mistake, my young Padawan. He believes Luke is so much alike
you, he will fall into the same traps. But he is not; his soul is stronger than
yours.
He and perhaps his
sister are the real saviours in this, if that title could be claimed.
But was it worth
it?
The Clone Wars, the
Purges, the Civil War, my own death which will be by your blade-, your own
demise, is it all worth a better future?
Always in motion,
the future is
So shall the past be
left behind?
Yes, Anakin
Skywalker, it should.
You are not my
Padawan.
You are not my
friend.
You are not a Jedi.
You are Darth
Vader, and I hate you more than the Empire in its entirety.
Why?
Because it never
cared, Anakin. Nor does anyone care for it.
But you cared and
in turn were cared for.
You betrayed us
all, Darth Vader.
You have sentenced
Luke to slavery to his Uncles ideals.
Youve created his
prison in this desert.
You will rip his
world from beneath his feet and destroy the only stability he has.
You will mutate him
into an eerie ghost of you years before.
You will force his
innocence to die quicker than those around him.
You will force a
child with no parents to grow up before he had the chance to take control of
his fate.
And you will save
him.
All this heartbreak
and horror...was it not needless?
No, because it was
his destiny.
Why didnt he
become you the thing you revere the most, yet fear with every fibre of your
being-, why?
Because that was
your destiny, Darth Vader.
And your destiny alone.
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